inacktiveyouser

Communicating through secret prose instead of "face-to-face."
          	Just two old souls;
          	Perhaps Wilde or Poe incarnate are we.
          	If forever is too much, then I shan't make you wait that long, my dear.
          	But, I fear, that if I come back now the pain will be too much for either of us to bare;
          	A scar I keep opening up again and again, it's time I let it heal better before I open it once more, letting myself back into your life unannounced,
          	But surprisingly not unwanted.
          	No, this little venture of mine will not last forever,
          	However, a place full of fanatasy and make believe may not be our best platform to speak.
          	I grow weary of being here, I must confess.
          	Maybe I shall go to someplace foreign to me, seek you out,
          	And begin anew.
          	Reintroduction: Out with the unintentional toxicity of the old and In with the shiny and new.
          	Ere I go for the night, I must add one thing:
          	You are always floating around in my mind,
          	Your name always on the tip of my tongue, unspoken.
          	And I hope, always, that you are well and thriving.
          	A song, one not heard in ages, cropped up in my head and it reminded me of us,
          	and I had to check in.
          	Hopefully it wasn't a bad choice on my part.

inacktiveyouser

Communicating through secret prose instead of "face-to-face."
          Just two old souls;
          Perhaps Wilde or Poe incarnate are we.
          If forever is too much, then I shan't make you wait that long, my dear.
          But, I fear, that if I come back now the pain will be too much for either of us to bare;
          A scar I keep opening up again and again, it's time I let it heal better before I open it once more, letting myself back into your life unannounced,
          But surprisingly not unwanted.
          No, this little venture of mine will not last forever,
          However, a place full of fanatasy and make believe may not be our best platform to speak.
          I grow weary of being here, I must confess.
          Maybe I shall go to someplace foreign to me, seek you out,
          And begin anew.
          Reintroduction: Out with the unintentional toxicity of the old and In with the shiny and new.
          Ere I go for the night, I must add one thing:
          You are always floating around in my mind,
          Your name always on the tip of my tongue, unspoken.
          And I hope, always, that you are well and thriving.
          A song, one not heard in ages, cropped up in my head and it reminded me of us,
          and I had to check in.
          Hopefully it wasn't a bad choice on my part.

inacktiveyouser

I'm safe, I'm safe, but I'm not doing alright.
          I keep thinking and thinking, having the same internal fight.
          I've been questioning things as of late,
          And it's made me realise that I'm not so great.
          I need to work on myself,
          I WANT to work on myself,
          Making me the best version I can be.
          Easier said than done, easier said than done.
          So many words have flown out of my mouth over the years,
          Empty promises to myself and others that end in tears.
          'Sorry sorry sorry,' I always say.
          I'm really trying my best so it doesn't have to be that way;
          Trying to get rid of all the sorrys.....except this last one:
          I should've given you a second or two to say goodbye, maybe for forever if you thought that to be right.
          But I took it away in a reoccuring fit of paranoia and self-loathing
          A fit of self-pity and shame.
          And I am sorry. Oh so sorry.