@silvawrits girl, i can't completely understand the feelings you're going through, as we all have our own things, but it's similar, so i hope it all gets better as soon as possible and you find that peace soon! and if u need someone to talk to, feel free to message, and lotsss of virtual hugs, flowers, and chocolates <3333 (hope this might help in someway, i might not be good with words, but the concern is genuine <3)