[!] psa
i'm sorry for the sudden announcement but it's very important that i make this post. i've never really wanted to do this but i've been struggling for quite sometime now. & it hasn't gotten better — only progressively worse. i feel like everytime i want or try to rp, i feel good about it for approximately three days & then i just crash hard, fully convinced that everything i make is shitty & worthless . at least that's what it feels like . it's become quite a burden both creatively, mentally, & physically speaking. i'm thinking that i need to take a step back & focus on myself & on my own health. then somehow let myself fall back in love with writing & rping in general. that & i feel because of my emotional state that it has heavily been influencing the portrayal of some of my ocs, mainly alex as a whole & not in a positive way either. & that stems from letting my moods dictate how i respond. i've generally been feeling miserable & things that are going on irl such as financial struggles with my family tend to be a huge factor to this. because of this, i haven't been getting along with my companions, & as much as we're trying to remain optimistic, it's been difficult for us all. not saying that it's the only thing but it's one of many factors. i've also taken notice that i've centered nearly every interaction around alex whilst not being considerate of other characters + other characters feelings & i feel really bad about it after having realized i've done this. so i want to apologize for that as well , it was not my intention. i wasn't aware of this this until a personal friend of mine made that known to me , & it made me realize how i've been going about it this entire time , it was wrong.
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