faithie

wow guys, what can i say? i've been on wattpad since i was 14. i remember it was two weeks before i started high school that i created an account and started reading and creating my own stories. i made my very first friends by talking about a book i read on wattpad, i met my best friend by explaining the plot of my very first story, i got through a lot of emotional shit by writing and reading on wattpad. but i'm 18 now- not the 'emo' 14 year old, not the 15 year old that romanticized suicide, not the depressed 16 year old that couldn't get the boy she loved to love her back, and not the 17 year old hot mess that just really wanted to be released from the imprisonment called 'society'. i am the 18 year old happy-go-lucky girl that, despite all the weird shit in her life, doesn't care and looks to the sky to see beauty in everything out there. i'm not saying i'm giving up on writing, but i think i'm done writing on wattpad. it was a good run, i even have a story that has more than 1K reads. i just don't have the same fuel anymore; my depression was my creativity and my inspiration for as long as i can remember. now i'm on to finding new inspirations and maybe one day i'll be back. maybe one day you'll see my name in the bookstore. which, by the way, my name when i publish will be f.i. conrad :)
          have a great life guys, because you deserve it

lol so I just logged in and I can honestly say I don't write that much anymore. Yeah I just published a story but I've been writing that since August. Just going to be honest, Different Colors is based off a situation I'm currently going through. Everything in there is a true story and these are my real thoughts and emotions. I've been writing them down in my notes on my phone and I figured why not put it on a website no one knows I have an account to and delete the notes from my very easily accessible phone so I don't have to explain to anyone what I really, truly mean.

Woah there i forgot about watt pad for a loooong time. Since my season at work is done I guess I can just write now(???) I'm going to shift things around- rewrite Henley and the Band, Save Yourself, delete my nowhere books and call it good! Hella late, zu spät. Later home dogs! (And pray that the guy I like starts to like meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee)

hey guys recently i got a comment on my story about how i needed to write more and better(?) um... okay, no. I have a full time job this summer and the only reason i'm even on wattpad right now is because it's my day off and i'm bored as hell. i only write when i feel like it- when i'm inspired. lately i've been depressed so i'm not writing. anyways, hello again :)  ! i hope everyone is having a perfect day, week, year, life! ;)

I just read the most disturbing thing ever and honestly I don't want to live anymore. (It was a Tumblr post about a 12 year old girl whose entire girl population of school was chewed out for wearing "slutty" clothes in 90 degrees weather while the boys sat in class to watch movies because "boys cannot control their list for girls" !!!!!)

I have so much on my mind rn and all I want to do is read and write but I have writers block and The Teddy Bear Agreement isn't updated. Crying. 

Currently crying omg 

Thank you for reading and voting on 'Anonymous' :^)

Guys I'm home today. 
          
          Not sick,
          Not a snow day,
          Nor am I skipping. 
          
          I'm f*cking allergic to the cold and have a rash on my face and neck. 
          
          I don't think I like Winter, at all.

guys i'm writing i really am buuuuuuut i have to go to work in like an hour and my schedule for next week is practically all day every day except for on thursday (CHRISTMAS) and i don't work tomorrow sooooo i will have one chapter of 1940 (LONG VERSION) and a chapter of a new book... thanks guys!