Insignificant Pigeon

I don't know if anyone cares, but I'm posting this just to clarify.
          For anyone who reads my ongoing story, 'Girl in a Boy Band', I just unpublished all previously published parts. I'm in the process of re-writing them all, because I wasn't happy with how they turned out and with where the story was going (nowhere, I had no idea how to develop the almost non-existent plot line. I have a plot line now, though).
          So I will re-publish them when they're done.
          I have Chapter One finished, but I'm only going to publish them when I'm finished them all, so I have time to write the following one, if that makes sense?
          Anyway, just so everyone knows, that's why my story is no longer published.
          Thanks for reading, :)

Alright so there was this guy in my old school that I kind of liked for a bit, but then I realised how much of an annoying little shit he is (nah, he's not that bad, I just like insulting him. We have a weird kind of relationship where we know exactly what to do to get on each other's nerve. It's kind of funny, and it's mostly just slagging). And he goes to the youth club. He goes to the boys' school across the road from me and I've seen him like. . .twice, maybe. We hadn't talked in like a year. Anyway we exchanged like 3 sentences and then he left to talk to another guy from my old class.
          
          And today, I had my first guitar lesson! It was really fun! And at the end, I walked out and someone was sitting there waiting to go in for their lesson. Guess who?! 
          It actually wasn't him, it was his little sister! She looked up and we made eye contact and I was like 'I know this person', but then I was like, 'no it can't be!'
          
          And I kind of froze for a second and stared at her and then remembered where I was and walked past. I looked around to see if he was there, because I know him and if I just leave it's very obvious that I'm just avoiding him. He wasn't there, thankfully. Then I told myself the girl probably just looked similar to her. So I went on walking downstairs. 
          But THEN, I heard my guitar teacher ask, "did your Mum get the email about Rory's lesson?"
          Holy fuck! He goes there too!
          What are the odds?!
          And me and my old friends all thought he had a crush on me in 4th class. He only came to out school in 4th, from England. We all slagged him for his accent. He sat beside me in class and I had to teach him Irish. Most painful thing I've ever done in my life.
          Anyway, so yeah. I can't escape this boy!
          Okay that's me done, just thought it was an ironic coincidence :)
          

I know probably no-one Is goining to read this and I don't really care. I need to rant about something. 
          So, I was in 6th class when Covid started, so I never really finished properly. 1st Year was really weird as well. And even now, I still feel like I'm in 1st Year, not 2nd. My brain is a year behind.
          And when we left for Seconday School, all my friends went to a different School, together. And they started hanging out all the time, all together, without me. They're not bad people, they just very much live in the moment. So if you're there with them, great! If you're not, it's very much out of sight, out of mind.
          And in 6th Class, I stopped hanging out with them at break, for multiple reasons. I won't go into them right now, maybe in another rant. 
          So I started hanging out with the guys, and I  had fun and jokes around with them. It was easier.
          
          We drifted apart, but now there's a Youth Club in my village. I went last week and I was disappointed, honestly. There were girls from their school who I didn't know. And I talked to my friends quite a bit, and they seemed pretty happy I was there, but I got the vibe they really didn't care. Like it made no difference whether I was there or not.
          And today I was going to go but didn't in the end. But as I sat there, torn between to go or not, I found myself thinking it would be fun to play with the guys. I wasn't thinking about the girls at all!
          I've really drifted apart from them and I feel like I don't fit in anymore. We've all changed and I also made new friends. And my new friends are more my kind of people. But I miss my old friends too. I don't know. I'm really torn. But either way I'm going to go next week and give it another try. 
          
          Well, that's my weekly rant over and done with. I might started posting her more often. I follow someone else who does this, and it seems good to get your thoughts out there. And it's also fun, to just rant and get other people's thoughts and opinions.
          :)