I am an oxyMORON

I spelt intelligent wrong on purpose, I promise.

I just read that debatable oxymoron is an oxymoron and now I'm having a crisis, because it's not but why is it not? 
BUT THEN WHY WOULD IT BE?!

I'm loosing my shit rn.

Holy shit lose and loose are said differently, but you say losing and loosing the same way holy fuck I am too high for this