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@iphone_conspiracies yeah, that’s exactly how I’m feeling. I found out the night he died ‘cause my mum told me. Like I know he’s no longer here because of the boys’ posts and the rest of the world, but there’s still a little part of me that expects him to come back and say “don’t worry, guys, I’m not dead xxx” yk and I’m going through cycles of numbness, crying, disassociation and anger, and it feels like it’ll never stop. 
            And like I always keep finding that one tweet saying “1D split in 2015/16, but it ended in 2024” and it always manages to make me cry. 
            But I’m so mad at the world for pushing him down lower than rock bottom, I’m angry the people who make jokes about it or try to make conspiracy theories about it, I’m angry at the people who bullied him so severely and are now “heartbroken” even though they said they wanted him to die, I’m just so angry and sad 

@TaylorsLarrie1328 yeah, I get that. It was the first thing I heard when I woke up three days ago, and I completely broke down. it’s the only thing I’ve been thinking about these past days. It doesn’t feel real for some reason. I’m still expecting him to post snapchat stories and everyday or for someone t come out and announce the biggest prank of the century. it feels so surreal. He didn’t deserve this. no one ever does, but especially he didn’t. he had such a bright soul and he went through so much. I’m so angry at the world, at all the people who hated on him and pushed him deeper than rock bottom. I’m just so angry and sad and numb all the time.

@iphone_conspiracies and like I feel so down that I can’t really find happiness in the things that used to make me happy