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@AuthorAmberMKestner Hey! followed you back! I took a long break during the pandemic I'm slowly trying to get back into things.
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updating my story info
shadows in the night- i am still re-writing this and will continue to until it is done. this story is very close to my heart. this story is also one of the hardest stories i have ever written not just because of my MS getting in the way all the time but also because of how long it has been sitting in my head.
a town called nowhere- i am planning on finishing this one and there are about 6 more chapters left to write for it. what happened with this is i ended up with really bad writers block (and readers block) right after the pandemic hit. i know how it ends i just need to figure out how to get the that ending from where i am.
as we collide- i have completed this one! turns out it's a novella and i will update it every Wednesday until it is done. hope you guys enjoy this one while i work on and figure out how to finish the other ones.
red- this is on hiatus and i don't know what i will get to it. i really want to finish a town called nowhere and shadows in the night first.
thank you guys for reading.
-megan
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i forgot to post this last night but here you guys go.
again this is still a very ruff draft so it's possibly terrible. i hope you enjoy!
the whispering forest part 2
“i never understood what you saw in him.” Marilyn says as she watches me pace back and forth in front of the large window in my living room. I can see the sunset just above the outline of the forest. I frown.
“I just-“ I stop.
“I mean besides for how hot he is, the boy can rock leather pants like nobody’s business.”
“He was nice.” I say. It’s weak I try to think of more. “Understanding, he was there for me when I need a shoulder.”
We both know what I mean. Three years ago my parents went through a vicious divorce. It was sudden and confusing and it left me feeling hopeless. Ivy had her friends, I had Marilyn and then Jason showed up. It was stupid but at the time I thought he was my knight in shining armor.
“mmhmm.”
“I’ve had enough of him.” I tell her. “That why I did it.”
She sighs. I stop pacing long enough to pour myself a glass of whisky.
“But going into the forest?”
“It was stupid I know. If I could shove him into the forest right now I would.”
Marilyn cracks a smile.
“Remember when we were little and you used to stand right outside of the forest starting at it almost like you were daring something to happen.”
I nod.
“You always told me to stop tempting the magic but I never listened.”
“Then Tim when missing and you stopped.”
“The whole town said the forest ate him, after that I was afraid it would eat me to.”
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I take a sip from my glass and then another. I don’t tell her that after my parent’s divorce I started going back to the forest and sitting just outside of the trees hoping that it would take me . I don’t tell her that after the first time Jason cheated on me I stood just inside it hoping that something would happen to me, because adrenaline and fear were better than wondering why I wasn’t enough. I had been playing a game with the forest all my life it just finally took something. I down the glass.
“Slow down there girl.” Marilyn says.
I don’t say anything instead I turn to look out the window the pink and orange of the sunset is starting to disappear and the growing darkness leaving shadows around the room. It’s time. I don’t know why Marilyn has decided that nightfall is when we have to go but when I turn to look at her she looks like a huntress getting ready to go for a hunt.
“So Eliza are you ready to find that heart of yours?”
No.
I’m starting to think I’m better off without it. The heavy weight that was in my chest is now gone and I feel like I can breath again without drowning. I smile at her. I watch her as she pulls the red backpack she brought in front of her. Watch as she pulls out two lanterns and a hunting knife. I swallow. I wish I could get another drink, I don’t want to do this sober.
I follow her out of the house and across the field that is my backyard, stopping in front of the forest. She reaches for my hand and I take it. Intertwining our finger together. Neither of us says anything as we walk into the forest.
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I think i'll post the short story here in parts every Friday until it's done. As a warning this is not edited or rewritten so it might possibly be terrible.
the whispering forest part 1
“I think I lost my heart in the forest.” Those are the first words I tell my best friend when I see her at school.
“You didn’t!” she gasps, raising a hand to cover her open mouth. I nod. She doesn’t have to tell me how stupid I was for going into the forest last night I know. The truth is I was hoping I would lose something in the forest. A memory, the letter I can’t seem to get rid of but should with it’s fake I love you’s and it’s faker promises, my virginity. I just didn’t think i would lose my heart.
“I went into the forest last night.”
She’s quite for a really long time, thinking.
“You could have called me.”
“I know,” I say kicking the ground with the toe of my right shoe.” I wasn’t thinking.”
What I don’t tell her is that Jason called again last night begging me to take him back. Telling me how sorry he was, telling me that she was just a one time girl and it wouldn’t happen again. What I don’t tell her is that I stayed up late into the night listening to music and drinking a little too much. And that I was so tired of this game he played I decided it was enough. And that’s when I walked into the forest.
“Eliza.” I can tell by the way she looks at me that she knows it’s about him even without me saying it. I sigh.
“I was hoping it would help,” I admit to her. “That I would stop having feeling for him.”
“Did it?”
“Yes.”
Another sigh.
“There are better way’s then a magic forest.” she replies.
“I know, I was just..i’m so tired Marilyn.”
She places a hand on my shoulder, pulls me in for a hug.
“You shouldn’t have to destroying yourself for him.”
I swallow, she’s right of course. I’ve given so much of myself to him the past few years. Even my younger sister ivy knows that.
“I don’t know what to do.” I say into her shoulder.
Sometimes I feel like I’m sinking
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“Then I’ll tell you what we’re going to do.” She pulls back, both her hands are on my shoulder and I love the way she says we instead of you. “We’re going to go back to that forest and we’re going to get your heart back. And then we’re going to tell that good for nothing f--kboy to shove a stick up his a--.”
I cough a laugh out imagining telling Jason to s--k it.
“We’ve got this girl.”
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So i wrote a short story for fun (and to help me slowly get back into writing) for the #warriornuncontest but it ended up being way longer then the 500 words and a little bit to mature i think, (dose cussing and a wired forest full of monsters and a tree of bleeding hearts count as mature?) then they wanted so instead i think i'll start posting it in parts here just to give you guys something to read.
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hey guys.
this year has been a millennium and it's not even over yet. i can't imagine what else is going to happen. And i'm hoping everything eventually settles down.
I'v been dealing with a lot of stress the last few months which has ended with me having a MS flair up last month. This time it decided to mess with my eyes and they still haven't come back 100% and my hands keep going numb. along with more headaches (worse then usual) and a few other symptoms that i can't seem to shake. i do have most of my energy back which is good.
My anxiety hasn't been helping with anything either.
i hope you guys are doing better then i am and that everyone is staying safe.
i just posted chapter 9 of shadows and i hope you enjoy it.
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I’m breaking this into two playlists the one I’ve been listening to, to re write shadows in the night and the one I used to create it when I was first writing. Enjoy! More songs may be added to the rewrite one as I continue to write.
Re write
Pardon me –stained
Nothing left to lose –stained
Hurricane-thirty seconds to mars
This is war-thirty seconds to mars
The dark of you- breaking Benjamin
(how to live) as ghosts album – 10 years
Don’t fight it- 10 years
Love is madness-Halsey
Down- breaking Benjamin
Torn in two-breaking Benjamin
First draft
Pardon me –stained
Nothing left to lose –stained
Hurricane-thirty seconds to mars
Out of ashes album- dead by sunrise
Seventeen days album-three doors down
What have I done- within temptation
never to late –three days grace
dangerous games-3 doors down
the road I’m on-3 doors down
Retina-trust company
This war is over-trust company
Downfall-trust company
Stronger-trust company
Falling down-stained
We are-ana johnsson
Don’t cry for pain-ana johnsson
To the end- my chemical romance
Truth-seether
Skillet-monster
Skillet- awake and alive
Blank shell- 10 years
Don’t walk away-sick puppies
things will never be the same- jonas brothers
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There might not be updates for awhile, while I’m used to staying in the house most of the time everyone else I live with isn’t and it’s starting to get really chaotic here. I don’t have my own space where I live (I’v been sleeping in the living room for the last 5 years, since I had to give my room up when my grandparents moved in).
I will be posting a playlist later for shadows to make up for the lack of update. I know it’s not much and I’m sorry.
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the next two chapters of shadows in the night are up! and i'm working on chapter 9 right now. the next update for nowhere will hopefully be next week!
how are you guys doing?
i'm doing a lot better, i finally got my schedule back under control and i'm writing a lot more (i'm just really slow).
would you guys be interested in me posting play lists and character sheets and maybe small snippets between chapters? so you don't have to wait a week or two with no content?
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there will be no update this week i have been dealing with these awful headaches and haven't been able to think at all because of them.