i’ve been in pain since the day i was born, and every year my pain just grows with me, bigger and bigger until it’s too much, too much that i can’t handle it anymore. everyday i look at my red puffy eyes and my pale skinny body, i feel my soul slowly dying, slowly leaving my body.. and i just stand there and watch hopelessly, i watch every flower in ‘my garden of a heart’ -as my mom used to say-, getting cut and pulled out from the dirt by everyone i love, my friends, my family, my love and everything just makes my garden worse and worse.
it’s not living anymore. i’m tired of this, of everything. i doubt anyone that i know or care about will read this. but i just wanted to say one thing before leaving this horrible place.
i -unfortunately- loved and cared about everyone i knew, but that just made everything worse.
so an advice from someone that have been broken hearted so many times, don’t waste your love, don’t give it to anyone, only give it to the the people that truly deserves it. i found mine but my love was done, i was heartless by the time i met them, i let them down and i’ll never forgive myself for it.
goodbye.
yours truly,
the boy who never knew himself.