do you ever feel empty? like you're physically there but not really. like you blink and you're awake and doing some random stuff, and then you blink and you're drifting in the dark abyss and then you blink again, and you're back, doing something else? its hard to explain, but when i'm mentally there, i feel tired and i feel weighed down. nothing ever seems to make me feel alive again. its like i feel nothing but static now. i honestly have no idea what to do.
i'm also like- rlly touch starved, like i want someone to hold me close and tell me that everything's okay.