Striving is all i live for in this Mad World.
I strive to be the best.
I strive to be known.

But sometimes i feel that being where i am makes me feel that it is not worth it. Its not worth doing this things.

Though i am determined enough, sometimes i just want to give in and just let the wind take me to where it is heading. But i do not want to because the more i fail the more guilt i feel for not giving my best shot.   now i am left with a lot of confusion. What will i do? what do i plan to accomplish? 

if this world is not permanent...would i even dare to try to be somebody???? would i take a risk of knowing my real worth???? would it make A DIFFERENCE TO TRY???