And on top of that my grandma is having some health issues rn.
Rlly bad health issues
And today is her birthday too
And she has to spend it in the hospital
And its so HOOTTT OUTSIDEE AND IM WEARING A BLACK SWEATER AND THICK BLACK (tight) PANTSSS
IM SO HOTTTTT
SO HOOOOTTTT
only 1 visitor at a time
And rn only my grandpa seems to be allowed in the room with her
Im worried, hot, sweaty, tired, and have been here since wow idk around 8 or 9 am and its now 4:11pm.
Well as u can see im either going to start updating bc this is happening and id like to keep my mind off of it (or at least start writing something again) or im gonna not
I prolly will start writing again bc of this and i need to get my mind off of it b4 my mind gets stuck thinking about it and i spiral into depression bc of the many amounts of bad thoughts in my mind of what could go wrong.
Ik some (well most) people wouldnt hesitate to stop so they can handle whats going on. Just as some (most) people wouldnt think twice to be there when ppl they care about (or anyone they care about whether its a pet or a human or whatever) are about to pass away, they wanna be there when it happens (for what reason i dont know), however i am not one of those people. I do not even understand why anyone would want to put themselves through the pain of having to watch that happen.