@isit_raining
STREAM CHROMAKOPIA GUYSSS!!! ALSO TYLER THE FUCKING CREATER IS COMING TO MY CITY NEXT YEAR!!!
oh also im wearing a costume everyday for this last week of October. I was a fairy on Saturday, yesterday I was a witch, today I'm a cowboyyyy
anyways I'm so cute so sexy so fine i should be a cowboy everyday
guysssssssss im back on wp!!!!! uhm yeah i really leave to protect my mental so i can heal. because I've made so much progress within myself and I'm so proud of myself. I've found some tools to help me when i get down mentally because it happens a lot. and fast and lasts a while. but that's not the point. oh I've also been researching different coping skills and self harm alternatives and distractions. so like when I'm alone or like have no healthy distraction i don't like go binge or punch concrete or like yeah you get the point. and I've been letting a lot of things go and for giving people. and i feel really good. im getting happy. not there yet but getting there. and I've realized i shouldn't find my happiness in one person. shouldn't rely on that person to bring me happiness because that s not fair to me or them. i have to create happiness in myself and yk. yeah that's it i think. good morning. happy Monday!
I've never cried at school before and i was dead ass bawling my eyes out at lunch. that's so embarrassing so pathetic T^T
Honestly crying at school is way worse than crying at home. It's like the worst feeling ever.
i retwisted and detoxed my hair today. im proud of the results. brought me a little joy after the shit day i had
@isit_raining my main goal is to cut them short , around shoulder length and idk , whatever style suits my hair .
@isit_raining that's good to know you're happy today ! Yk I also plan on cutting my hair .
just a cute little poetry dump because im going insane because i lost my journal
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the smooth, freshly shaven skin of my thigh stings
it's been a while
i thought i was fine, i haven't thought about it
the feeling of a flame on my skin; delightful
my lighter now forbidden as my brain puts it
take away the lighter, take away the pain
how wrong i was
i was attacked
attacked at my strongest point
(the only part of me without protection)
attacked the only part of me
i was sure about (my happiness)
attack it's strongest point and i crumble
i thought i was strong, i haven't touched it
my forbidden lighter
buried in a drawer
collecting dust
it's been a while
eating disorder
i eat…food
as a human does
if i feel bad (about myself)
i eat more
and more
and then some more
till im beyond full
till i'm clutching my stomach
crying because of the agonizing pain
it hurts (i want to throw up) (i want to die)
torture
my least favorite color
your pretty
brown eyes
stuck
on mine
tempting me
enticing me
pulling me
closer
your pretty
brown eyes
deceiving
yet alluring
im addicted
to the lies
that you feed me
everyday
your pretty
brown eyes
make me
sick
but i
crave
your gaze
and attention
your pretty
brown eyes
burn holes into
my skin
but
it brings me
satisfaction