Greetings! I just wanna share to you my thoughts these past few weeks, or maybe these days. Not that what I've been thinking should matter to you or anything, but I just really wanna share.
In the past few weeks, I haven't been active here. I was just trying, though, because maybe I could get used to not being here as often as before because I should since I'm in college now. However, when I decided to uninstall the app as an extreme measure just to test if I could leave without it, it turned out I actually could without being here, without being in the world that has been my home, my safe space for 7 long years, the world that has been the only witness of my entire personality. Thus, I thought of deactivating my account for good because in addition to the said reason, I also realized that I'm also slowly losing the interest to continue living and spending my time here. I thought maybe I just got tired of everything because nothing really new has been coming. I actually felt (still feel) like I've already seen and read everything there is that this world could offer me, and I thought maybe this would be THAT time when I would have to quit entirely to... I don't know, maybe continue my life and look for another outlet?
I didn't really think it through like what would happen if ever I deactivated my account here for real. I don't really have a plan because I didn't expect that I would think of leaving this world on my 7th year here. I thought I would leave from here when my account turns 10 because that would mean I have to pursue my dreams which would require my full attention and extraordinary efforts.
Right now, I decided to just stay inactive for an indefinite period of time. I just can't leave this world, especially when staying here has brought me so much joy and memories I could never forget in my life. Maybe I just need a rest from being here because I've been very active ever since. I'm not even kidding.
And those had been my thoughts these days.
