sxvyfel

I'm sad,, I'm dealing w a lot problems right now Dana. Idk if she rlly is telling the truth that she doesn't care about me. I feel like she is saying the truth, I wish you could comfort me right now. I wish I never left your side. I'm still stuck reminiscing our past. But rn I'm rlly sad I couldn't have friends that stays longer, will it be always like this? I'm heartbroken Dana.
          I missed you and your presence.
          I love you,I hope your doing alright and is alive.

sxvyfel

I actually looked through the saved photos I still had of you! God! I wish we are still friends rn :^) you don't know how much I missed uuu so much! I'm actually not doing great..I lost another friend that could rivallll how I love u,
          I actually still admire her tho! Her drawings are so cool,I wish I can show it to u! And my drawings! I want to paint a portrait of you..
          But mann..I still hope your alright and breathing fine.. please live longer than me. I'd cry in your arms if I see you in the afterlife or whatever you call that thingyyy. I love you Dana..I wish you are doing great but if you've been actually reading my messages.. astarothiia is my username in every social media <33

sxvyfel

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STOPPP TIKTOK JUST DECIDED TO GIVE ME NOSTALGIC 2020 VIDEOS AND EDITS AND..fuck!! it reminds me of us,, I've already moved on but it rlly hurts me deep inside because i rlly loved and miss our friendship.

sxvyfel

Listening to softcore right now by the neighborhood while thinking of you,..words cannot fathom how i miss you,i still listening to music that i listened to the times we are still friends for 24/7, they remind me of our moments together.. meeting you was one of the best part of my life.

sxvyfel

Also don't mistake my ily in an romantic way..i see you as my bestfriend..even though i have a friend now who i consider my bestfriend too..your not going to remain as an experience and memory for me,you are my reason why im living right now... remember the time you got covid-19? I got sad to the fact i cried and hope you will recover..i hope you r doing well w/o me w u dana,love ya.

sxvyfel

As i grow and get older,i forget things about you,our memories together..will it only become a memory?,,i hope you can still consider me as a friend if not your childhood bestfriend..i forgotten your birthday..your face..i can't imagine how you looked like now...i still think about us when i play those songs i used to listen to when we were still friends...it hurts me mentally for not taking care of our friendship like a glass that could break in any slight mistake..i swear to you that I'm not that kind of a person..i hope you understood how i was before...i learned how to take care of myself and self love..i do not wish to do that to myself again and..to be honest im sorry for what I've done and ik you know it if you still remember..i hope you understand me..from that time you were the only one that kept me still breathing and hold into my life,you made me realized i could be loved and liked without having to change and imitate someone..i hope your not dead yet and still alive and healthy..i wish you a long life..and if you ever try to find me after decades or a lot years,well...i already might have already done suicide.. I've been planning that..i mean it's pretty to die young and beautiful,,right?? I don't want to see you in afterlife looking old and unrecognizable..i love you my dearest dana.