DAYYED

Listening to softcore right now by the neighborhood while thinking of you,..words cannot fathom how i miss you,i still listening to music that i listened to the times we are still friends for 24/7, they remind me of our moments together.. meeting you was one of the best part of my life.

Also don't mistake my ily in an romantic way..i see you as my bestfriend..even though i have a friend now who i consider my bestfriend too..your not going to remain as an experience and memory for me,you are my reason why im living right now... remember the time you got covid-19? I got sad to the fact i cried and hope you will recover..i hope you r doing well w/o me w u dana,love ya.

As i grow and get older,i forget things about you,our memories together..will it only become a memory?,,i hope you can still consider me as a friend if not your childhood bestfriend..i forgotten your birthday..your face..i can't imagine how you looked like now...i still think about us when i play those songs i used to listen to when we were still friends...it hurts me mentally for not taking care of our friendship like a glass that could break in any slight mistake..i swear to you that I'm not that kind of a person..i hope you understood how i was before...i learned how to take care of myself and self love..i do not wish to do that to myself again and..to be honest im sorry for what I've done and ik you know it if you still remember..i hope you understand me..from that time you were the only one that kept me still breathing and hold into my life,you made me realized i could be loved and liked without having to change and imitate someone..i hope your not dead yet and still alive and healthy..i wish you a long life..and if you ever try to find me after decades or a lot years,well...i already might have already done suicide.. I've been planning that..i mean it's pretty to die young and beautiful,,right?? I don't want to see you in afterlife looking old and unrecognizable..i love you my dearest dana.

May we meet again in the right time.

My heart yearns for your affection and warmth.

Still missing you, I don't even know if your still alive or not.

Even tho i moved on about our friendship, deep inside i found out i really miss you.

Hi! Im happy i was your online best friend,i moved on but i kept having dreams about us meeting again, guess what!? I dreamt about us meeting again and we were chatting at kakao talk we were talking and it felt like im in heaven to be able to talk you even if it's only a dream.
          
          I can still remember how you welcomed me to be your friend again in that dream,it shattered my heart for not being able to communicate with you in reality.we also played roblox in my dream it was so warm for me that i woke up with teary eyes.

i hope you still remember this acc and somehow see this messages..ill never forget our friendship,how you made my childhood colorful as if it was like you were the light in the dark room that im still stuck in, i can never recover that we've lost connected to each other,im sorry for what i've become..am i too much?what am i missing?im sorry for what you are actually feeling if you've felt uncomfortable,unhappy and incomplete with me,,.but remember you are my first and last true bestest bestfriend i had..my heart will always be loyal to you and only you i can't replace you,our happiness together,memories and our friendship...i love you and always be...please remember my name,please come back for me,come back ill apologize till you feel its enough..ill cherish my memories with you till death,to be honest i love you so much more than as a bestfriend because you are too important for me even though if you think me as a bestfriend,remember my name my dearest dana it's me your bestfriend H..i hope you still remember my full name you are the only one i trusted with my personal information because just one click of my unique full name you'll find me on facebook,,i mentally can't take my frustration anymore i miss you so much,i have a new roblox account..its "astarothiia" and if you still want to communicate with my old acc its "btsarmyjimin08" ...i hope we can still communicate..guess what? ill be 15 soon! do you still remember my birthday? because i don't remember yours anymore im sorry i failed you i don't remember much anymore i don't want you to fade away from my feelings and memories..i love you my dearest. - H

i miss us