so i went to see a doctor about a week ago, and i told him about what i was going through, and he told me i have the symptoms of a clinical/major depression. i also found myself to give up on a lot of things, and i dont really enjoy doing the things i love anymore, which is why i dont really update my stories everyday, the only reason i updated was because it was for you guys who might want to have fanfictions to read. i also wanted to thank you guys who have read one of my works called missing - a mingyu fanfiction, but i deleted the story. i wanted to thank you for following me and voting me on my crap stories, i appreciate that. and also i wanted to thank you to those who were my friends and are my friends, i enjoyed talking to you guys, i am really sorry if i have ever left you just like that without a goodbye, now this sounds like a goodbye isnt it? but dont worry, im not gg to try suicide.....
yet.
although i have been suffering alone lately, having nobody to rely on, having mo shoulder to cry on and having no ear to listen to me, although i have been crying out my eyeballs more than twenty times, i just hope that this spirit will stay strong as long as i am alive. to be really honest, a part of me wanted to leave but a part of me decided to stay, i just hope that i wont give up on myself,
goodnight guys.