VENTING
people wondering why im so negative, why i always bring myself down.... well my dad is the cause of it. He always brainwashes me that i will never make it, pressures me to the worse that i had anxiety attacks and i was just 11, it stopped when i was 13 but returned (I'm 15) . When im older i just want to take my mom and my siblings with me and leave the man that is suppsed to be called my father to rotten in hell, he made me suffer not only me but my siblings & mom aswell that im so done, he made me have these suicide thoughts and i thought it was going better but stupid of myself to have such thoughts. But whats scarier is that my best friend was the one who made me not think of it, when i cried i stopped if i though of him but it has stopped working - i hate it so much bc i feel vunerble and i dont want to be that anymore