I hate my name tbh

yOu'Re StILl aLiVe RiGhT?!?! 

FREN I MISS YOU 
          
          
          
          
          
          
          ~Caylin 

I’m moving my old book that I had to take down (”Come What May”) to my second Wattpad account. If you were reading it or wanna read it, message me and I’ll tell you my second account’s name. I’ll be posting it back up really soon. 

Don’t you just love it when you cry for a consecutive two and a half hours just because you hate yourself and so does everyone else? And then you get a headache from crying and your eyes start to burn and hurt and you get tired really fast? So instead of going to sleep at the usual 4 A.M. after making memes and reading fanfics, you get tired at like 10:30, but force yourself to stay up to talk to your friends till 1-2 so they aren’t disappointed? Yeah. I love nights like those too. 

https://youtu.be/cyOqIKGbYkg
          
          I’m sobbing. But this on loop is the only thing keeping me sane rn. 

I haven’t felt this bad in about three weeks. I’m just done with everyone and everything at this point. 

aNTHONYPADILDOHEARTEDMYFRACKINGCOMMENTANDIMNOTOKAY. 

Sorry if I 
          
          1.haven’t replied to anyone’s pms. 
          
          Or
          
          2. To those who’s books I used to read faithfully, I haven’t been reading any of your books lately.
          
          Wattpad is really stressing me out right now. Cause I feel like I gotta please everyone on here and it’s just not as enjoyable or fun anymore. 
          
          If I disappear from Wattpad for days at a time, just know I’m not dead. I’ve just been feeling extremely down and demotivated. Idk why. I just have. 
          
          I’m a depressed mess. I hope y’all understand. I’ll go...

http://lifegetsloud.com/next-year-will-warped-tours-final-year-full-tour/
          
          This brought me to tears. I don’t know exactly why, but I guess it’s because for many years, Warped has been an opportunity for struggling fans to have fun and be at peace for at least one day out of the year. To see their idols, the ones that’ve helped them through so much, and to not have their mind on depressing, negative things for at least one day. To meet the band(s) who’ve saved your life (and maybe on more than one occasion).
          
          Warped is an opportunity to see ALL the bands you like for the normal cost you’d pay just to see one. Which is good for the broke fans like me. Warped would honestly be the best and only opportunity rn for me to see any bands I love too since they literally come thirty minutes from where I live every year. 
          
          It’s sad that it’s ending. Well, not completely ending, but changing drastically according to this. 
          
          2019 would’ve been the first time for me to ever go to Warped, but honestly, I’m not sure if I even wanna go. 
          
          I’m just sad rn. I’ll go. 

They’re almost sold out and I’m sobbing. Oh my frickin gosh.