That’s terrible. I can’t imagine how hard that must feel. Take as long as you need to calm down. I know for a fact that there’ll be some a$$hats telling you to update, but take your time. This stuff isn’t something that you can just push back. Take care of yourself, and if writing is the way you calm down, then that’s okay too. Just know that if you need someone to rant to, sometimes, strangers are the best people. We’re here for you. I hope you find peace soon.