TW: VENT❗️
I have to get this off my chest l like Emilie l like her a lot and not like platonic type it’s l love you type and l CANNOT tell her no matter what bc she’s already becoming distant like never hugging me like she used to and etc but she has a boyfriend Koran I love him (platonic/friends) l like his scar on his left side I think he prettier than me smarter they’re perfect together honestly but l can’t get over the fact that I love Emilie and l can’t tell her anything about it because she’s gonna be weirded out/uncomfortable and more distant l don’t want want to mess up our relationship even more this isn’t fair why can’t I straight why can’t I just like nobody why do I exist why do I matter why can’t I be prettier,smarter. why am l here and what am l doing here .
