✩ 𝔫𝔬𝔱 𝔥𝔢𝔯𝔢✩

OKAY! so i quit wattpad (yay, this place is and was a shithole of misogyny) 
          im still writing, if slowly, on my own time. doing it in this way makes me feel like writing is less of a chore and more of a reward. im writing on ao3 by the same name (i know it could possibly be daunting because of the organizational methods, but its not that scary. + ao3 is really just a collection of works from published authors, 12 year olds, and old men with nothing better to do. some may be gross- but i think switching ao3's one of the best decisions i've made)
          and my writing has switched from good omens to transformers. hope everyone is well and stays well, bye bye!
          -iva :D

i did my nails earlier. they a pretty magenta-scarlet and I love them.. my mom is judging but I could not care less :) (also, 2 hours of time spent on this 10 nails is insane (abt 12 mins per nail)

this fucking waitress snuck up on me and she had a voice like silk and like I fell out of my chair gayly. her name was Elias and she was really nice so I just wanted yall to know.

Conan Grey's song 'Summer Child' is so touching. I don't mean it as being lovely or kind, but it touches your heart and mind in ineffable places. It's not my favorite song, but I love the lyrics.

so. like. Happy second anniversary to me and my darling! I'm afraid I'm a little bit of a simp for her. I'm very much head over heels. Like, we met a little over two years ago, and we clicked. In dedication to her, in case she stumbles upon this;
          To my brilliant Scarlett.
          I love her more than the sun, she is my sun, my lifeblood, my warmth, my everything. I'd do anything for her, even live or die. She's my love, and I'd give up everything for her. She's worth the world. I love you, I hope you enjoy the ring and necklace, along with the candy.  Unconditionally, Ava <33

vent? I came out to my parents two days ago. I was not ready. I was happy in my little safe box, happy that no one that I cared about would judge me. I was forced to admit to my parents that I liked girls and only girls, and it sucks. I feel guilty because I see my mama's hazelnut eyes glaring up at me, tears pricking the corners, asking 'How can you be sure?' I feel guilty because I see my daddy's disapproving eyes looking down at me with distaste. I shouldn't, because my love life is not a sin, and my girlfriend isn't going to hell for loving me. I have no clue what my grandparents would think, no idea if they'd curse me to hell and back or, the worst possibility, quietly condemn me, unable to meet their once 'perfect, makes everything look easy' child in her eyes. And that's what I'm scared of.

thx for following back<33

I don't think I want to write here anymore. I love writing, but people have been commenting hateful things about writings probably older than them. I've since removed and reported them, but they remain in the grand scheme of things.  And, on another note, AO3 is much more my style. Hoping this reaches y'all well, 
          long live the gays :3

happy pride month!
          ❤

No one look at my past messages alr