𝑰𝒗𝒚 𝑨𝒍𝒆𝒙𝒂𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓

bolee pinjaam kejaaap , nak promote ceritaa :3 tenkiuu. klo awak suka cerita yang tenang, penuh perasaan dan makna. singgah sekejap di acc saya.
          
          Cerita "Jejak Marlie." : https://www.wattpad.com/story/376983112?utm_source=android&utm_medium=link&utm_content=story_info&wp_page=story_details_button&wp_uname=rshiaxz
          
           
           Cerita terkini: “Jejak Maelie”
          Kisah tentang seorang budak lelaki yang belajar tentang kehilangan, harapan, dan erti persahabatan melalui gadis yang mengubah seluruh dunianya.

HOLD UP. AS OF RIGHT NOW. I AM ATTRACTED TO THIS ONE PERSON. 
          
          HOLD UP. 
          
          STAY TUNE GUYS. I WILL UPDATE ON WHEN I FALL OFF THIS FEELING. 
          
          I CAN'T BELIEVE THISS.
          
          IT'S BEEN SO LONG NOW THAT I'VE CATCH ON FEELING OR AM INTERESTED IN SOMEONE....
          
          HE'S SO GENTLE, AND SMART AND SOFT SPOKEN, AND CUTE, AND VERY KNOWLEDGEABLE, AND HE'S A YAPPER, a cute yapper.... ARGHH. NOH. NO NO NO NO 

Human's relationships, no matter what, would involve between you and the other person to exploit each other. We can't love without using one another. Because somehow, that's how we complete each other. 
          
          Human's love. 
          
          Such a bittersweet relationship. 

Dang it. Not even a week have passed, yet I'm already quite exhausted from university ( ತ⁠_⁠ತ )my knees are all shaky, my whole body aching like rusted puppet, i had to force my eyes sleep for an 8 am class (have been quite the night owl this Sem break...), we'll have some practice for an upcoming programs, those freaking stairs, the scorching hot sun, awkward interactions with new buddies, met some (really) strict lecturers, bothersome assessments, running out of time. Basically rethinking my life. 
          
          But anyway, everything is fine (⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠)⁠♡
          
          I love writing... Really... It makes me feel like I'm in another world—my own world. But with my limited time and lack of writing skills, I couldn't write a lot AND my real world keeps pulling me back to reality. I have to attend it. 
          
          Life is stressful, gotta admit. But I believe God brings something in my life to shape me for my better future, so I compromise. 
          
          I will take some time off Wattpad guys, until the next holiday (⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠)⁠♡ I can't brings me to write with all of this boring works piled up. 
          
          You know, sometimes, I really hate and despise human for creating 'job' 'hierarchy' 'competition' 'above and below' and so on things alike of it. This living and being alive feels like water and oil, that's been put in a wrapped bottle. It was handed to me and said "this is life" oh well thank you (⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠)⁠♡
          
          No words. We still need to wake up for tomorrow. Whatever happens, I just want to end in Heaven. I hope Allah guide me with patience and understanding as He's the only sole being who knows me well. 
          
          Be healthy, be happy .⁠｡⁠*⁠♡

Happy Birthday Yoon Jeonghan (⁠●⁠♡⁠∀⁠♡⁠)(⁠●⁠♡⁠∀⁠♡⁠)(⁠●⁠♡⁠∀⁠♡⁠) Miss him so much｡⁠:ﾟ⁠(⁠;⁠´⁠∩⁠`⁠;⁠)ﾟ⁠:⁠｡ can't wait for him to come back next year (⁠◍⁠•⁠ᴗ⁠•⁠◍⁠)⁠✧⁠*。(⁠っ⁠˘̩⁠╭⁠╮⁠˘̩⁠)⁠っ
          
          I'm grateful that he's born, that he comes into my life and that I am his fan, a Carat (⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠)⁠♡ I was so stressed back then—sent far away from home for study, met new people, in an unfamiliar environment, had a bit of culture shock, have burnt out, emotional crisis, self doubt, afraid of the future, lack of money, tired... Well, many more of a daily basis normal things some human gets through (⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠) but I admit, I was weak and still am weak.
          
          But I'm still here, thanks to Allah, my self and believe it or not, also Seventeen. It is fate that brings me to watch Going Seventeen, and have a laugh (⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠)⁠♡ and it is also fate that I come to stan them, even tho I'm a bit late (I've now stan them for about 3 years hoho). I am so grateful. A dull and colourless days are painted with colours when I'm stanning Seventeen. And that is something really meaningful and I will treasure for as long I can. 
          
          My bias is Jeonghan. He's a member that I see myself in him. As such seeing him healthy and happy would definitely makes me at ease and at peace too. Bcs I see me in him, he's somehow a role model for me. I hope he's doing well, eats a lot, healthy and happy. 
          
          Happy Birthday Yoon Jeonghan (⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠)⁠♡

Let's pray all the best for all of the volunteers of Sumud Flotilla.
          
          Israshit is btch, Israshit is a coward. Humanitarian aids such as medical assistants, food supplies, baby formula, toilet papers, chocolates etc — how dare they block them all from reaching Gaza for those poor and wronged Palestinians.
          
          Those things that these volunteers bring are obviously not a threat, it's HUMANITARIAN AID. 
          
          They show peace, they even dumped all of any sharp utensils they have on the boat to the ocean. Yet Israshit shows such disgusting act. Shameful and disgraceful. 
          
          Let's never stop talking about this. Open our eyes, open our hearts, open our minds. Free Palestine. Fck Isr—ael.  
          

Dang it ｡⁠:ﾟ⁠(⁠;⁠´⁠∩⁠`⁠;⁠)ﾟ⁠:⁠｡ I'M SO BUSY (⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠) SOMEBODY JUST KILL ME NOWWW I DON'T WANNA DO THISS (⁠ᗒ⁠ᗩ⁠ᗕ⁠)(⁠ᗒ⁠ᗩ⁠ᗕ⁠)(⁠ᗒ⁠ᗩ⁠ᗕ⁠)(⁠ᗒ⁠ᗩ⁠ᗕ⁠)(⁠ᗒ⁠ᗩ⁠ᗕ⁠)

I'm going back to university next week ｡⁠:ﾟ⁠(⁠;⁠´⁠∩⁠`⁠;⁠)ﾟ⁠:⁠｡ just thinking about all of the workload I will get is already stressing me out AAARRGHHH. That is that ಠ⁠︵⁠ಠ
          
          Also, I'm a member of a club. And we planned MANY programmes for the upcoming new semester (⁠´⁠；⁠ω⁠；⁠｀⁠) no, I didn't planned all those. THEY did. And then they distribute the works on us, the juniors.  Something like that. Ykwim ┐⁠(⁠´⁠д⁠`⁠)⁠┌
          
          Yeah, and those seniors are kinda very scary when they get mad. OUGH, sorry, your instructions are kind messy and needed to read 5 times before we finally get it hehe SORRYY (⁠｡⁠ﾉ⁠ω⁠＼⁠｡⁠)
          
          I haven't make any mistakes yet tho. It's my friend. Then she cause a bit confusion here and there, and so one night, one of the senior who is supposed to supervise us send a pretty long good text telling us what we did wrong, what shoulve been done, what's the order of things, bla bla bla. And honestly? That makes me feel more nervous (⁠ ⁠；⁠∀⁠；⁠) WHAT IF I DID YET ANOTHER MISTAKES (⁠ ⁠；⁠∀⁠；⁠) AHAHAHAHA 
          
          No no, she gave good advices and all. It's just me. I'm already kinda a bit overwhelmed by all the workload and people in general (⁠ʘ⁠ᴗ⁠ʘ⁠✿⁠) 
          
          I can do this. I'm just nervous, and need to freakout first. Hahah (⁠*⁠´⁠ω⁠｀⁠*⁠)ಡ⁠ ͜⁠ ⁠ʖ⁠ ⁠ಡ) 
          
          Ouh God. I hope I can just go on fantasy adventure, meeting elves and dragons and have superpower and just relaxing in my cottage. But no,,, I have to do modern things and uh, work, study, survive Yahoo✧⁠◝⁠(⁠⁰⁠▿⁠⁰⁠)⁠◜⁠✧
          
          Huhh... Anyway, life goes on (⁠・⁠∀⁠・⁠) Have a good day. Be healthy, be happy (⁠◕⁠ᴗ⁠◕⁠✿⁠) BYE!!! 
          
          

(⁠⌐⁠■⁠-⁠■⁠) I hate jobs (⁠ಠ⁠_⁠ಠ⁠)⁠>⁠⌐⁠■⁠-⁠■
          
          And sometimes... It's really embarrassing to be that one person who did something unintentionally wrong and it's funny, and it somehow brightens up the atmosphere in the workplace ಠ⁠‿⁠ಠ I hope at least I makes it funny. 
          
          UHUKKK ～⁠(⁠つ⁠ˆ⁠Д⁠ˆ⁠)⁠つ⁠｡⁠☆
          
          PLEASE LORD, SIT MY CLUMSY ASS DOWN. MAKES ME MYSTERIOUS OR COOL OR PRETTY TOO ¯⁠\⁠_(ಥ⁠ ⁠‿⁠ ⁠ಥ⁠ )_⁠/⁠¯  NOT ANXIOUSLY LOUD AND CLUMSY ONE OHOHOKKK (⁠╯⁠ರ⁠ ⁠~⁠ ⁠ರ⁠)⁠╯⁠︵⁠ ⁠┻⁠━⁠┻
          
          Iwannadigaholeandhidemyselfinitforever

I... I don't think I can start watching When Life Gives You Tangerine (⁠´⁠；⁠ω⁠；⁠｀⁠). Like, I want to but I'm too scared. 
          
          I've only watched edits on tiktok... AND THAT'S ENOUGH FOR ME TO BAWL MY EYES AND CLOGGED MY NOSE ｡⁠:ﾟ⁠(⁠;⁠´⁠∩⁠`⁠;⁠)ﾟ⁠:⁠｡ I'm ugly crying in the middle of the night ( ಥ⁠‿⁠ಥ). 
          
          Ouhh... I love crying. The emotional feeling thingy. But this drama, oughhh... They, they kinda hit hard. I'm not ready for the wave of emotions (⁠｡⁠ﾉ⁠ω⁠＼⁠｡⁠).
          
          You know what? I think one day I may just suddenly watch it. It's a good show, good kdrama. I will watch it when I've ready myself. I WANT TO WATCH IT ～⁠(⁠つ⁠ˆ⁠Д⁠ˆ⁠)⁠つ⁠｡⁠☆