Hunny, i know your in a bad place atm, but seriously it does get better. It will be a slow process, but you will feel better after all of it. I may not be there to help you through this in person, but if you need me just drop me a message on here and ill chat to you for as long as you need me to. Ive been where you are now, and tbh im still going through it. Thankfully my friends have been my biggest support, and id love to offer you the same support. X