@jackson_terrance ok thank you that is very reassuring. Take your time and take care of yourself. I really hope thing get easier for you. If possible would it be ok if you were to me updated on the situation as it progresses, you don't have to of course and I'm sorry if it's asking to much or if it's wrong to ask. It's just that book help me get though some really dark times and is seriously my most favorite book ever (and that's saying something I read a lot). But your mental health and well being will always be most important and will always come first, all I really ask is if you do stop writing or give up on it please inform me. Thank you I'm sorry to pester.