jadejackson44

Hey guys. 
          
          I feel like i should delete my account or at least log out for a while. I'm sure no one would miss me.

Hey guys!!!
          
          Todays my Birthday!!!!
          
          It's 10:38 p.m here and I had the best birthday i've had in a long while!!
          
          Well G'night guys!! Sleep tight and stay safe!!

Guys I have worries for my brain. 
          
          I hate it when the necklace I have been wearing while we get the ring i wear around my neck most of the time fixed bunches up in the hollow of my throat.
          
          So I just spent 20 minutes trying to get it to stay out of the hollow of my throat. 
          
          I'm laying down. No matter what I did it would always of stayed like that.
          
          I'm such an idiot...

Thanks for following!

When i was little my Mum would sit on her bed and i would sit with her every night and we would talk. 
          
          Then i went to 7th grade and i only went like once a month to sit with her. 
          
          Then i hit the next grades and i stopped completely. 
          
          Then today. I had a bad day. My depression came back after months and i wanted to cut. It was after super and i hadn't eaten. I just couldn't force myself. My mum had gone to her room. So as i was walking to my room i stopped in front of her room. I reached for the doorknob. I was about to enter. I couldn't. I just couldn't. I turned around and i left. I just miss that. When i could walk into my parents room and fall on the bed and tell my Mum all about my day. 
          
          I just can't now. I wish that i wasn't so screwed up.

Yay!!
          
          @Phan_4 followed me!! thank you so much!!!

I do not really think that anyone actually reads these. 
          
          After all i just have one follower. I am so glad that i have that much. 
          
          Anyway have you ever missed someone so much. That when you close your eyes you can see them. You can hear their voice. You can imagine their scent. I miss my girlfriend. She is so beautiful and kind. She cares for me. Even when no one else does. I just want to hold her. To hear her voice. To see her beautiful eyes. To be able to hold her. To wrap my arms around her again. 
          
          I miss her so much.

Do you ever have that feeling that you don't matter to this world anymore?