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imagine not being in love with shinichiro. that can never be me 

if you dare slander kazutora, i will block you immediately. leave my baby alone. 
          
          the person you should be hating on is kisaki. that dude is too fucking obsessive and manipulative, i despise him with my entire fucking soul and being. i mean kisaki is one of the best antagonists that can make you hate him and his plan for the future was really scary and he manages to succeed. that doesn't mean i support it. if you like kisaki in romantic terms or ship with any of the characters (except hanma), please don't talk to me. 

baji keisuke. the only anime character (for now) that has and still have made me cry like a fucking bitch and among the few fictional characters that have earned my respect. his loyalty is something i have never witnessed until he came. it's even more surprising because he is just a kid. knowing the burden that kazutora was carrying, the pain mikey had to deal with, and the hatred they had for each other (kazutora and mikey), he did his best to protect and defend his loved ones from each other. even killed himself for them. he still joked to cheer chifuyu up though he is at the verge of death. he even tricked everyone into believed that he is against toman, when he was investigating kisaki(the main antagonist of the story). i'm thankful takemichi stood up to mikey, i very much am. he is a good son and i love how he does his best in his studies so he doesn't make his mom cry. it's funny that the boy who doesn't want to make his mom cry is the same boy who sets a car on fire because he is hungry. however, i wished and desperately hoped that his death was a joke or illusion, and wanted to see him grow along with everyone else. unfortunately, the time has come. 
          
          i still don't accept his death. i am completely against it but i acknowledge it. keisuke somehow manages to have a huge impact on me, more than i have expected. still, whether if he is based on a real life person or fictional, i hope he is resting well and maybe having as many peyoung yakisoba he wants. 
          
          thank you for everything, keisuke. you will forever be remembered and loved. our beloved first division captain and founding member of tokyo manji gang. 

man, i miss writing scenarios :( 
          
          also, i recently got into tokyo revengers :] i fucking love shinichiro and yuzuha. in my opinion, shinichiro is the most average and normal looking dude in the anime if compared to real life, YET HE IS HOT-- 
          
          i might start writing scenarios again but make it with nct, ateez and tokyo revengers(?) 

did i unpublished my book? yep. 
          
          i re-read my chapters and i am not liking it. i personally found the grammar and sentence structure terrible, and i do not want anyone else to read it. 
          
          i am planning to rewrite everything once i have an official plot and schedule to write. i cannot promise that i will post because i do not have much time until my finals, but i will do my best. 
          
          

so just recently i watched "handmaiden" and started getting back at "love, victor" season 2. i am getting huge, HUGE, book inspo. at the same time, i just recently changed stuff on my book and i decided instead of going for a very deep plot, i want to go for something that i relate to, at least a little bit of it. 
          
          i'm planning to open up some imagines, (ateez, nct, deukae, twice, red velvet, etc). um, yeah. so happy last day of pride month and thank you for reading my book. 

although seokkyung is progressively getting worse because she relied on joo dan tae, or should i say baek jun ki, a lot. at the same time, i really pity her. if she only had proper parents and guidance then she wouldn't have such a hectic life. i still love how well-written her character is

i've written chapter eleven and i am still surprised that i managed to get over ten :*

i miss being in my "mdzs/the untamed" phase 

i wish to have a bottle of alcohol and get wasted, but at the same time, i am still underaged. does anyone else think of getting drunk and making out with girl or is it just me? like who cares about grades and parents' expectations. *me being the middle child and worrying over grades and parents over my health lol* the hypocrisyyyyyyyy is crispy