･῾ ᵎ⌇ ⁺◦  ✧. Abt ᵎ⌇ ⁺◦

‿︵‿︵୨˚̣̣̣୧ - - ୨˚̣̣̣୧‿︵‿︵
[◛⑅·˚ ༘ ♡] - 15/11/99
[. ˚◞♡🎀 ༄] - Mexico.
[˚ ༘♡  ⋆｡˚] - 1999
‿︵‿︵୨˚̣̣̣୧ - - ୨˚̣̣̣୧‿︵‿︵


I was exposed to gore first at 5 and then sexual content and p0rn at 6, that's around the time I started degrading my body (touching places I wasn't supposed to, etc). It makes me feel disgusting because I can't stop. I'm so scared of grown men because of what my brain tells me will happen if i get comfortable around them. When I was in 5th grade, I had to walk to school in summer wearing multiple hoodies and layers and I still feared being taken and r#ped by an older man. But at the same time, I fantasized and romanticized the idea. I'm only 13, i'm going into high school next year, the internet literally ruined my life and how I perceive things and it makes me feel disgusting and dirty. I just want to stop. I don't want to think dirty all the time anymore; I want my innocence back.