jan_hanie

hii guys, 
          	this isn't smth important but just a sad feeling in my heart from a really long time. If you're reading this and maybe you relate to this too, tell me.
          	
          	I think I'm leaving stray kids behind, like I feel like I'm losing them. And that feels so terrible, when I was in that phase in my life trying to figure out everything about myself (career, studies, weight, body, relationships and almost everything) that is when I was 17, they helped me, like idk how but they did, and I can't talk to people in my life about this cuz they'll definitely laugh and won't care. But now I feel like my life is back on track and I don't need skz anymore. This feels so guilty idkw.
          	
          	WHAT IS THIS??? did i outgrew??? I feel like crying every time I see a reel or post of theirs or abt them. I wanna be a stay forever but it just feels like I'm not.
          	
          	I just wanted to rant to y'all anonymously ofc.

s1s1verse

@jan_hanie im glad i could help❤️ here to talk anytime!
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jan_hanie

@s1s1verse this makes so much sense, thank you. I am proud of myself, i think I just miss that old -obsessed of skz- me but I understand this now i'm a casual fan and always will be. That's alright and thank you for replying, means a lot. This actually put a smile on my face. ♥️
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s1s1verse

hi! we don’t know each other but just here to say that its completely okay to be “casual” fan. you don’t have to keep up with everything that they do or be active in the fandom to love them. and more importantly you don’t have to need them in order to love them or still enjoy their music/content. its also completely okay to outgrow things!!! i myself have been in so many different fandoms in my earlier teenage years and i outgrew them. doesn’t mean i don’t enjoy them anymore, I’m just simply casual about liking it. and if anything if your getting your life back on track, you should be proud of yourself instead of feeling guilty!!!! i myself found skz over a year ago when i was 16 and they really cheered me up at times. I’m turning 18 now and still a stay, I’m definitely not as “obsessed” as i first was when it was still fresh but that doesn’t make me feel guilty at all!!!! because life happens and thats what we should be focused on more than anything else. i also think its better to be casual about being a fan of something/someone so that you can balance that out with ur actual life. 
          	  sorry if i spoke too much oops
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Anna_Hiwatari

JAN MY BABYYYY!!!
          Oh, god. I haven't seen you around here in so long. How are you, dear? 
          I hope you're having a good day, that you're happy and smiling.
          
          Know that I am here, thinking of you. And seeing you in my notifs again made me smile.
          Whenever you need me, drop in my insta DMS.
          Love you so so much ❤️❤️❤️

Anna_Hiwatari

@jan_hanie ah, I'm glad. Take care, Jan darling ❤️
            See you around! Kisesssss
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jan_hanie

@Anna_Hiwatari I miss you too ^︵^  hoping everything will fine, take care of yourself and don't stress.
            hmmm also red lightsss I saw the cover, got me blushing can't wait to read it.
            I'm doing wonderful. Life's been busier but amazing (life is so good~), my health is great and everything is fine.
            Rest well and take care anna ♥️
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Anna_Hiwatari

@jan_hanie oohhh I'm happy you're okay. I really miss you ❤️
            I'm okay. Had some health issues but I have a check up today to see if everything is ok. I'm feeling better than a week ago, that's for sure.
            And since I've been home for the past week, I'm resting and writing. Finishing up Red Lights.
            And you? How's life? Are you healthy?
            
            And don't rush. I'm patiently waiting for you ❤️
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jan_hanie

hii guys, 
          this isn't smth important but just a sad feeling in my heart from a really long time. If you're reading this and maybe you relate to this too, tell me.
          
          I think I'm leaving stray kids behind, like I feel like I'm losing them. And that feels so terrible, when I was in that phase in my life trying to figure out everything about myself (career, studies, weight, body, relationships and almost everything) that is when I was 17, they helped me, like idk how but they did, and I can't talk to people in my life about this cuz they'll definitely laugh and won't care. But now I feel like my life is back on track and I don't need skz anymore. This feels so guilty idkw.
          
          WHAT IS THIS??? did i outgrew??? I feel like crying every time I see a reel or post of theirs or abt them. I wanna be a stay forever but it just feels like I'm not.
          
          I just wanted to rant to y'all anonymously ofc.

s1s1verse

@jan_hanie im glad i could help❤️ here to talk anytime!
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jan_hanie

@s1s1verse this makes so much sense, thank you. I am proud of myself, i think I just miss that old -obsessed of skz- me but I understand this now i'm a casual fan and always will be. That's alright and thank you for replying, means a lot. This actually put a smile on my face. ♥️
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s1s1verse

hi! we don’t know each other but just here to say that its completely okay to be “casual” fan. you don’t have to keep up with everything that they do or be active in the fandom to love them. and more importantly you don’t have to need them in order to love them or still enjoy their music/content. its also completely okay to outgrow things!!! i myself have been in so many different fandoms in my earlier teenage years and i outgrew them. doesn’t mean i don’t enjoy them anymore, I’m just simply casual about liking it. and if anything if your getting your life back on track, you should be proud of yourself instead of feeling guilty!!!! i myself found skz over a year ago when i was 16 and they really cheered me up at times. I’m turning 18 now and still a stay, I’m definitely not as “obsessed” as i first was when it was still fresh but that doesn’t make me feel guilty at all!!!! because life happens and thats what we should be focused on more than anything else. i also think its better to be casual about being a fan of something/someone so that you can balance that out with ur actual life. 
            sorry if i spoke too much oops
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jan_hanie

HYUNJIN IN A BUZZCUT???!!!?????
          
          KILL ME ALREADY IT'S TOO HOT TOO HANDLE OH MY FUCKINGGG GAWDDDDD ＼⁠(⁠◎⁠o⁠◎⁠)／
          
          THIS MF CAN PULL ANYTHING OFF ISTG.
          
          (If people said anything about his hair, I'm finna gon thrown hands istfg)

jan_hanie

why isn't wattpad, wattpad-ing anymore????
          SUGGEST ME SMTH TO READ, PLEASE.

byeokki

@jan_hanie yesss <3
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jan_hanie

@byeokki I'm going to check it out ✓✓✓
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byeokki

@jan_hanie that was the best recommendation i could giveee. 
            Although ny reading list also has a few interesting ones hehe
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jan_hanie

Happy Birthday Minho-yaa~~~
          
          This man is getting hotter by day, bro like relax I can't handle buff Lee Know. And his teasing behaviour istg that lee know visits me in my dreams XD...
          
          Anyways, happy birthday to the sweetest being ♥️ i love him  with my whole heart.

jan_hanie

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHAN
          
          (I've been here for like 20 minutes but I just didn't knew what to write for him, there are no words that can express what I feel for him. I respect him and look up to him a lotttttt, i found him when I was lowest in my life and skz just made me so much better i didn't realise it that time but now I do. I'm not be able to keep up with their schedule these days, but guys I love you so much and chan I adore with my heart.)
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          Damn i actually got a little emotional, and I'm acting like as if he'd read it. LOL
          but happy Birthday again channie ♥️
          .
          (I'm not crazy and I don't wish to marry him, but I absolutely adore him, LoL)