japansprodigy

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japansprodigy

this message may be offensive 
it's been a bit and i can understand if it's a bit obnoxious of me to do this but, i just wanted to do this.
          
          happy early birthday to blake and i, blake should be turning 19 and i will be turning 15.
          
          honestly, even if i lost the following i once had when i was truly at my peak or i'm grateful for all the memories gained along the way. the days i spent and the years i remained on this site, they will always be my best memories. thank you to those who interacted with me all those years ago and for the years i was here.
          
          blake was only meant to be a way for me to express young childhood creativity but, she ended being so much more. she helped with things i never thought she could, blake was my escape from house issues but now i feel as if she is part of me and anything i identify as til the day i pass. 
          
          while i'm here, i wish to give you all a introduction to who i, the admin, am. 
          
          hello there, my name is kai and i'm a trans FTM. i am bi. i am dating the prettiest person i know and i hope to, one day, move in with with. i still struggle with issues but, i cope better now. i write poetry to cope with the problems in my life. 
          
          life was never pretty for me but, i'm grateful to have had all of you present in my life at one point. 
          
          thank you, red, for raising me, even though i'm just some random child on the internet you happened to meet, as your younger brother. i cannot express how grateful i am for you.
          
          thank you, jerry and key, for being there when i needed you and being the family and support system i needed when i didn't have one.
          
          thank you, lannie, for being my best friend and helping my self-esteem and making sure i didn't do any crazy shit that i (thankfully) never did. 
          
          for everyone who was my friend but, i'm dumb and can't remember your name, thank you. you were all my world and my day brightened whenever we talked, even if i struggles to be expressive back then and even now.
          
          i love you all. thank you.
          
          yours truly, kai. ♡