Jerusha

Jeruuu, my twin. ♥️

Does this ever happen to you?
          You feel trapped inside of you
          Like you can't escape you
          The bully is you
          But you can't beat you
          
          Do you ever feel enslaved to your own thoughts?
          Like no matter what you do, you are not enough 
          You are not satisfied 
          
          Like you solve a problem, but something new comes up and it scares the shit out of you
          
          Something happened to me recently, so here's an advice for you
          Think it, feel it cause even the bad days have to pass
          Nothing is too scary or too unbearable 
          Don't take things too personally 
          Cause in the end it has to end anyways
          
          Bad days are like new moon
          It's long and empty
          But the next night comes and it's over
          
          Things take time 
          Be strong and happy, 
          Cause in the end the only person you have is you

Did they ever tell you
          You have to be perfect
          You cannot have emotions
          You are suppose to feel, what they tell you to feel
          So when you do, your world comes crashing down.
          
          They tell me
          Behave more ladylike
          If it hurts, act like it's not too much
          Don't worry others with your problems
          So I do, but when you have problems you don't know where to go?
          
          Now, they tell me
          Be more young 
          Be more happy
          Why don't you tell us when you're upset?
          Why won't you express yourself?
          Why are you always tired?
          
          But there is only so much I can do 
          Only so much I can be
          I tired of living up to your expectations 
          Cause I'll never be enough 
          Someone else is always going to be better at whatever I do
          So I give up on you
          
          
          
          

I once was so scared of being broken
          I didn't let people in
          I was scared of falling in love
          Yet, I let you in
          And you got in on my biggest fear
          You broke me
          And you moved on
          You made it seem so easy
          Made me seem like I didn't exist
          Every diary entry didn't make sense 
          Every song was useless 
          Everywhere I went reminded me of you
          And everything seemed meaningless 
          
          So tell me, was I that easy?
          Did you feel the void I feel?
          Did anything remind you of me?
          Do you sometimes smile, thinking of me?
          Because I still do, I probably will always feel the void you left in me.
          I will always feel guilty that I led my guard down for you.
          
          But I don't regret the memories we have.
          I don't regret the moment we shared.
          I don't regret the fact that I couldn't be enough for you.
          
          I know we wouldn't last.
          I know we were different. 
          I know you were too insecure, and I was too crazy.
          I know that after every fight, we wouldn't talk to each other no matter what we'd do.
          
          What I do regret is the way you broke me.
          The way you scarred me.
          The way you moved on in your life, but pretended like you still liked me.
          The way you said, what you said, and for the way to did, what you did.
          
          Incase you are wondering, I still am broken.
          I still am damaged.
          I still miss you.
          But, I don't love you.
          I am working on myself, still figuring my shit out.
          Some day, I might find someone better, someone who will treat me better.
          Because, I am tired of being scared, I am tired of being out of it.
          I know I am better, I deserve better.
          And you, my dear, you were no better
          
          
          

Heyyyy guysssss!!!!
          Sorry I went missing for so long.
          Just needed a break, however, I'm back.
          Posted a new chapter, promise I'll write longer ones.❤
          Love love

Heyy guys!!!
          
          I know I haven't been leaving an authors note and place for you guys to suggest, but I just want y'all to know that I'm open to suggestions.
          
          I also know I haven't been updating lately, I keep brainstorming about my next chapter but nothing seems good enough.
          
          Anyways, I might just randomly start writing soon.
          
          I hope yall are enjoying it, cause it's my first book. 
          
          Have good night❤

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