avien

checking lang since im gonna go go do my school works after

just wanna say hi.
          
          how are you, guys? life is good. I am definitely making a progress! ;)

hii! septembro is here ;)

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          I was so happy when I saw a server for students who would take the entrance examination. I told it to my best friend because I wanted to do this with her. I keep on inviting her for the free reviewers from testing centers that I know. sadly, her guardian was against it. if only she told me, I might convince her guardian, you know. (hays, hindi tuloy nagamit pagiging malambing ko dito (╥﹏╥))
          
          at midnight on the third day of june, I prayed. I am so thankful for Him. the next scenario of this month was like:
          
          1st week: focus sa goal, review here, nag-ayos para sa voters registration, nasira ang phone, tamang puyat lang sa gedli.
          2nd week - 4th week: jusmeyohskjshwjxjshhwjshxh ahtiq,,, anue pue genawa mu s4ken,. hahawhaha
          
          my summary for july.
          
          1st week: dumating sila lola at si kuya ron. nanibago ako kasi ang daming adjustment sa bahay. nawalan pa ako ng sariling space. (okay lang naman (..◜ᴗ◝..))
          2nd week: panay bisita kasi nga nandito si lola. nagsimba noong linggo at pina-bless ang sasakyan.
          3rd week: birthday ni mama. wala na time for review. (tinamad na ang taong i2 whjwksjwk)
          4th week: iyakin ka, boi. sinulit ang oras kasi may pasok na kinabukasan.
          
          - abyeng (ㅅ´ ˘ `)

hi

hi. guess what? this peep is delikads na like hahahaha im into something and i want to keep this one so bad

idk tuloy if im gonna clean my profile here hahaha ang kalat ko na. sana the things i said here, will remain here. all alone. :))

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          hey im back and guess what? this girl is already 17 and WDYM BY THESE ENTRIES I WROTE MONTHS AGO? so i guess this is the things a person can do when their cups are full? when they are so lonely that they dont have someone to share these things with? when they are hurt so much and no one has the teeth to hear them? HA. im sorry, darling. i always fail you. i owe you a lot and i cant do anything to fulfill all the things you want. 
          
          is this me being pity? is this me being that depressed peep you always have been when its april and may? i dont know what to say. few months and you will take upcat with your friends. are they still even your friends? the group of friends that has been there for you since high school? i dont know, darling. maybe i failed them, too. im sorry because im not always there. im sorry because i cant be there. im sorry because im weak. 
          
          is this because of my period that im so stupid right now? hindi ko na alam. ang hirap pala, nahihirapan pa rin ako. bakit sabi nila malalaman mo naman ang mga bagay as you grow older? pero bakit parang hindi naman? is it because im stupid? i cant believe im crying over this. 
          
          

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          alam mo ba i told some of the things happened a year ago to my friend. to be honest, i didnt feel na gumaan ang loob ko, hindi ko naramdaman yong satisfaction na sinasabi nila when you rant to someone. instead i felt that i owe them. hindi ko alam. i felt uncomfortable, i felt unsafe revealing those things to her. i felt so guilty that i let myself slip those emotions i kept a year ago. and dont get me started with the phrase ‘‘hindi ka lang sanay’’ im aware with it. its just that i didnt feel na alam niya kung anong nararamdaman ko. i didnt feel na naiintindihan niya. i felt like shes just taking it as a joke, that its just a regular story she tend to hear everyday. i felt so vulnerable during that time and i felt like shes using my emotions to hear something from me; to make me sing. 
          
          but you know what? im not angry. i didnt feel any anger towards them. its just that im sad because again i need to carry my own weight with the things they gave me. sorry hahaha i guess im just too comfortable with this app that i let you hear my voice? 
          
          thank you, darling, for always being strong. thank you. 

hi? been a while