
jhoessnakeu
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is it weird to say that i don’t want to be happy? like, i hate my mental health but i’ve been depressed since i was 12, i’ll turn 19 this year and i don’t remember being happy and it scares me i only know my life like this. of course, being happy is probably really nice and the best that could happen, but how do explain that to someone who never was happy in the first place? everytime i explain that i get weird looks and the only respond i get is: “well so you don’t wanna try? i see.” no i did and people give up at some point, which i obviously did. is here someone who feels kinda the same? i wanna talk to someone who understands me, because no one around me does happy valentine’s day guys

Geumgguk
@ jhoessnakeu i kinda relate but i am at a point in my life, where I just dont care? idk i am not sad, i am not happy. There are some days where I feel down or a bit happier than the other days, but most of the time i just dont care. If you ever want to talk, i am here to listen.
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chaos_today
@jhoessnakeu I kinda relate to this, idk if this is what you meant but like, i find more comfort in negative emotions rather than good ones. That doesnt mean that i dont feel any positive emotions but like i know how to deal with negative emotions it is more comforting, positive emotions can really overwhelm me because i dont know how to deal with it
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jhoessnakeu
is it weird to say that i don’t want to be happy? like, i hate my mental health but i’ve been depressed since i was 12, i’ll turn 19 this year and i don’t remember being happy and it scares me i only know my life like this. of course, being happy is probably really nice and the best that could happen, but how do explain that to someone who never was happy in the first place? everytime i explain that i get weird looks and the only respond i get is: “well so you don’t wanna try? i see.” no i did and people give up at some point, which i obviously did. is here someone who feels kinda the same? i wanna talk to someone who understands me, because no one around me does happy valentine’s day guys

Geumgguk
@ jhoessnakeu i kinda relate but i am at a point in my life, where I just dont care? idk i am not sad, i am not happy. There are some days where I feel down or a bit happier than the other days, but most of the time i just dont care. If you ever want to talk, i am here to listen.
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chaos_today
@jhoessnakeu I kinda relate to this, idk if this is what you meant but like, i find more comfort in negative emotions rather than good ones. That doesnt mean that i dont feel any positive emotions but like i know how to deal with negative emotions it is more comforting, positive emotions can really overwhelm me because i dont know how to deal with it
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jhoessnakeu
merry crisis

jhoessnakeu
i’m so depressed that i even cry when i lose at dumb card games,,,,,,

jhoessnakeu
does someone wanna be my friend? :0

jhoessnakeu

jhoessnakeu
question: buch auf englisch oder deutsch?

jhoessnakeu
okay soooooo,,,, i’ll be back with writing i think. ich glaube ich werde was neues anfangen, kurzgeschichten, was ganz langes- keine ahnung, aber das schreiben fehlt :///// habt ihr ideen? ship’s? plot twists? lemme knowwwwww

444lca
@jhoessnakeu yay freut mich dass du wieder da bist <3 vielleicht eine story über schizophrenie? klingt weird aber ich find du bist ziemlich gut darin mit solchen themen umzugehen ^^
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jhoessnakeu
ist noch jemand active? planning on writing again :/

jhoessnakeu
i thought about- and i still have un-finished books. should i finish them? does anyone want to read something from me? :,)