Knock, knock. Is this thing actually on? Because I honestly don’t think I will ever fully recover from the absolute whiplash of losing them in both universes at the exact same time. Like, what did this fandom actually do to deserve this level of heartbreak? To watch Jiara go through years of the ultimate slow-burn, fighting through absolutely everything just to finally confess their love, only for JJ to be taken away from Kiara so brutally... it completely shattered the entire fictional universe. But what makes it a million times heavier is looking at the real world. Going back and watching the absolute joy, laughter, and inseparable energy of Rudison during the early seasons, and then seeing how distant and completely different everything became by the end.Losing kie and losing JJ was an absolute tragedy on its own, but losing the off-screen magic alongside them feels like a double betrayal. It’s grieving a beautiful story and a beautiful friendship all at once, to the point where it genuinely affects my everyday reality. I am officially stuck in a loop of rewatching old edits, writing chapters on them in a total flash, and living in complete denial.In what world was this the reality we were supposed to accept? Jiara and Rudison, please come back to me