jimins_jams566

 I love you momma, I know I never say this much and you will never see this message, I love you. I'm grateful too have you in my life.  Sorry I ruined yours mama. I never intended to get kicked out of a school that you payed so much for. I never intended to hurt your feelings. I know your probably somewhere in Korea right now working hard to pay for my life in America. Thank you mama, I love you.

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@BlueZahara I'm okay, I can't receive messy anymore

''lonley nights on my bedroom floor
          Too many monster cans to ignore
          Too many book left with a next day test
          Readin' "hey have you seen that vollenteer game"
          Nowadays the floor is getting quit
          I used to be a girl studying all night
          How the days have passed with that aloe draft
          Leavin' life behind in my chevy car
          
           I could use another day in my room with my buddies
          Rolling through life tryna make my family love me
          One more night on the floor I wish
          Take me back to being young, dumb, on that strip
          In my beat up chevy tryna make money
          To remember dark night ending up lonley
          Yeah we laughed we lived so dear country
          I miss my studies"

Last year was a terrible year for me and my writing, I never finneshed my book 'Hidden Pain' and ended up in posting it, I still have the book in my drafts so I'm thinking about editing it and reposting, would anybody be interested in that?

Biden won the election, I'm pissed

Hallo, also werde ich sehr bald aktualisieren! 

Also bin ich zurück, ich war ein bisschen zurück, habe aber versucht zu schweigen. Ich werde jetzt wahrscheinlich viel Deutsch und Tagalog verwenden. Wenn Sie nicht verstehen können, was ich sage, verwenden Sie einfach Google. Ich lösche jedes Buch, das ich hier gepostet habe, und wiederhole es. Ich fühle mich in diesen Tagen an einem besseren Ort zum Schreiben. Mein Leben hat sich beruhigt.

@BlueZahara I'm doing better

I just read the saddest bts fanfic, it had me in tears and made me realize how much I need to change my life if I don't won't to end up how jimin did. God I'm so fucking scared, this book just brought me back to a reality iv been trying to escape for the longest time. I realize I'm slowly killing my self with the things I do. I'm dieing and I'm going to hell. God will never forgive the stuff iv done to myself and other people. I'm scared. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm tired of telling people I'm fine when I'm really not, I'm tired of spending money on drugs that are killing me, I'm tired.. just so tired.. of the life I live now.