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i couldn't sleep the whole night kept replaying the book over and over in my head. destroyed me destroyed me. 

it starts with us when do you come out ? i have had enough.

so much to say actually. the book was terribly hard to get into, 50 pages in i dozed off (ryle's tactics weren't doing it for me up until his romantic gestures came in). i have dislikes and complaints with the plot and  characters but what me and all the people on internet failed to understand that it was meant to be this way it was supposed to be this way, if you haven't read note from the author you mustn't know how it was rolled out of her real life, the characters are as real it gets. they make blunders, they fall in love so pathetically, they beg over their sexual desires, have the most unimaginable toxicity in them making you wonder coho must be exaggerating no way ryle could be this way, if this ever came to your mind while reading this book sorry you haven't yet seen the world. when olivia said its brutal out here she meant it she was true about it. heartache. heartache. i have got no words for atlas however, god made him with all the time and love he had. do you ever cross paths with such men? i hope all of us are blessed with an atlas and alyssa as bestie. i really hope for all of us. lily lily lily, brave and bold, kisses for you i really see how you managed to get atlas all to you. i don't think i have felt so many emotions in such a long while but this was a heart breaking read, a rollercoaster of emotions in all honesty, very realistic but i know you won't believe this was real two bits, destroyed me in the best possible way. coho's mum and jenny bloom i wish to grow up as you.

i finished reading it ends with us, i have been staring straight at a wall for 15 mins. it doesn't ends with us it ends you i can assure. please look forward to a heavy review i am in my senses right now. 

sometimes i think i'm ungrateful of all the love and support i have gathered and gained, one of my recent conversations with one of my friends was about how both of us have been very unappreciative of our platforms and audience. so i'm taking some time off to tell people in my life who have supported me, been there for me and my passion a tiny thank you. i remember shifting to wattpad and having 13 of you guys but 10 left leaving 3, thank you for being there you are everything to me. i write because of you, i think because of you and i love you each of you everyone of you <3 i'll personally thank but this message is for all. 

one of my friend called me jimin. i have never agreed more before. 

what am i made of made for ? i am made of all that poetries sumaya writes, all those twists alex michaelides writes, a ukulele, stray kids + ian + bts, r&b, jazz, a piece of your mind, hotstar kdramas and all of other media i have ever consumed. 
          
          what i am made for ? to attend concerts, to hug and comfort, to cry, to listen to music and to write. 

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i wasn't made for academics no. never. i don't need academic validation I need peace i know i can never be good at academics ever. and i am absolutely fine with that i would love to leave that area for others because it's personally not mine. 

i should really get back to writing and take some time out to think of some fanfiction plots short sweet ones !!!