Hi, I’m back.
I know I promised I wouldn’t ghost again, and I meant it—I really did. But I spoke too soon, before I could even process the weight of everything piling up on me. Turns out, I severely underestimated how hard it is to juggle being a full-time BongLeni fanatic and a student. I tried, I really did. I kept telling myself I could make it work, that I could balance both without burning out. But reality hit me like a freight train. The deadlines, the exams, the never-ending responsibilities—they didn’t wait for me to catch my breath.
And in the middle of all that, my brain still somehow found the energy to spiral over Bong and Leni, over every little detail, every crumb, every headline. It’s exhausting, loving something this much while also trying to keep my real life from falling apart. But I think I’m learning—learning that it’s okay to step back when I need to, to pace myself, to find a rhythm where I don’t have to sacrifice one love for another.
So yeah, I disappeared. Again. And I hate that I did. But I’m here now, and I think I’m figuring it out. Little by little, I’ll find the balance.