ʲᶦⁿˣ, jinx .ᐟ 𝗔 𝗝𝗜𝗡𝗫 .ᐟ

and i don't wanna choose between being a salesman or a soldier // BUT IF IT WERE AN EDIT IT'D SAY HER BEST FRIEND INSTEAD OF SALESMAN. 
            
            just let me look a little older / let me step a little bolder ]] RUE'S VIGILANTE ARC , THEM LOSING THEMSELF BY BEING JINXX :sob: 
            
            Choose between being a butcher or a pauper / MORE LITERAL I'D SAY ? THEM IN U.A VS THEM AS A VIGILANTE / 
            Honey, I'm taking no orders / RUEMI RAIN SCENE , SONOMI BEGGING THEM TO COME BACK && ' i'm gonna be nobodys soldier ' as them ditching her in the rain scene </3

“you got that one wrong by the way” she comments, pointing at one of the answers rue had / somehow / got. she wasn’t the best at math either but at least she knew a few answers to some of the questions. and that was good enough for her!
            
            at the mention of wanting to see the costumes, she grins and is quick to dump the contents of the bag onto the bed near rue’s feet, a grin on her face as she shows off the costume’s to them. 
            
            “ta-da!” kimiko says happily, doing jazz hands to emphasize the bags of costumes that sat on the edge of the bed. “i got us matching costumes from that one horror movie i know you like so much” she says, grinning and pushing the bags towards them to give them a better look at what she had brought.
            
            she was / very / proud of herself to know that she had / still / remember the little things rue liked; not that it was very / hard /. especially not when they watched the movie like a / million / times already.
            
            okay.. that might’ve been a / little / bit of an over exaggeration but the point still stands!
            
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@jinxedvigilantism  　the way the other seemed so / excited / was honestly quite amusing. but she opts not to comment on it; it would only / ruin / the moment.
            
            not that there was / exactly / a moment to ruin but that didn’t matter! what / did / matter is the fact that kimiko was / just / as happy for it to be close to halloween like rue was. and she / knew / rue would be excited to spend it with / her /.
            
            they did spend halloween together every year after all!
            
            truthfully, she / loved / the dark aspects of halloween; she had / always / been so morbidly interested in darker subjects. granted, they didn’t really / help / her in the long run but that didn’t matter! it was the / thought / that counted!
            
            well.. to / her / that’s all that mattered. 
            
            the sound of music in the room was something that made the hero pause for a moment, trying her hardest to figure out / what / song was playing. though, she / couldn’t / figure it out due to the / insane / type of music that rue seemed to enjoy. their taste was such a / mystery / for her but she never seems to tell them that. 
            
            everyone was different, after all!
            
            and she knew / better / than anyone that rue was / certainly / different. 
            
            kimiko soon plops down onto the bed, shifting up towards where her friend sat, peering over their shoulder to look at the work they / had / been doing before she walked in. a low hum comes from her at the sight of / random / equations splayed all over the page.
            
            she was honestly / not / surprised that they wanted to take a break. especially with how / complicated / the problems seem to be. not that / she / could really talk much; she did / less / work than rue did! 
            
            the two of them were / not / the most academic in their class. the only difference though is that / she / wasn’t failing as bad as rue was. shockingly.
            
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music  played  throughout  rue   's   dorm  as  they  sat  on  their  bed   ,   laptop  in  front  of  them  and  school  books  on  their  lap   .   they  seemed  to  be  /falling  behind/  in  their  classes   ...   which  wasn   't   something  they  couldn   't   afford  to  do   .   the  last  thing  they  wanted  was  to  get  in  trouble  with  both  their  mother  or  their  teachers   ...
            
            ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ but  at  the  same  time   ,   studying  was  /so  boring/   .ᐟ
            
            perhaps  that   's   why  rue  didn   't   exactly  complain  when  their  best  friend  barged  into  their  dorm  room   .   albeit  there  was  still  a  roll  of  their  eyes  that  followed   ,   even  if  it  was  a  light  hearted  one   ,   let  alone  a  whole   '   come  in   '   made  in  a  sarcastic  but  joking  tone   .
            
            in  all  honesty   ,   rue  had  gotten  used  to  kimiko  barging  into  their  room  nowadays   .   even  for  a  loner  like  them   ,   they  didn   't   seem  to  mind  too  much   ...   this  time   .
            
            ⠀⠀⠀⠀❝   you  don   't   have  to  tell  me  twice   ,   if  i  see  another  math  equation   ,   i  think  i  might  lose  it   .   ❞⠀⠀⠀⠀they  laughed  softly   ,   albeit  to  be  honest  they  were  being  completely  /serious/   .   i  mean   ...   seriously   ,   it  was  /math/   .ᐟ   and  it  was  driving  them   /batty/  as  one  would  say  in  this  season   .ᐟ
            
            ❝   no  way   ,   you  did   .ᐣ   ❞⠀⠀⠀⠀there  was  a  shimmer  of  curiosity  in  their  cerulean  hues   ,   albeit  the  thought  also  made  them  wince  quietly   .   not  at  the  costumes   ,   but  at  the  idea  of  them  potentially  being  forced  to  attend  one  of  u.a   's   halloween  parties  this  year   .   they   'd   just  have  to  put  up  a  convincing  argument  if  it  ever  came  up   .⠀⠀⠀⠀❝   what  are  they   .ᐣ   let  me  see   .ᐟ   ❞
            
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@lovedfearings   ...
            
            ⠀⠀⠀⠀╱⠀⠀⠀HELP   ,,   go  for  it   ..   my  rue  writing  is  a  lik  rusty  though  i  fear   </3

@fortunisms   ...
            
            GO  FOR  IT  MAMACITA

@pyrids   ...
            
            ⠀⠀⠀⠀❝   i   ..   was  hoping  it  would  have  worked  as  some  sort  of  diversion    ....   .ᐣ ⠀⠀⠀❞⠀⠀⠀albeit  even  the  vigilante  seemed  a  bit  confused   —   if  only  shown  by  the  way  their  words  came  out  more  as  a  question  rather  than  a  confident  statement   .   it  was  just  their  luck  it  wouldn   't   work   ...   literally   ,   if  you  took  on  the  fact  they  were  existentially  just  a  living  bad  luck  charm  no  matter  how  hard  they  tried  to  turn  their  chances  around   .⠀⠀⠀⠀❝   but  that   ...   clearly  didn   't   work  with  my  luck   ...   ❞

them and kimiko spent /so/ much time together , which was something rue /adored/ .ᐟ.ᐟ she was one of their best friends , one of the people closest to them , of course they 'd spend as much time with her as they could .ᐟ
            
            their hands fiddled with the woven bracelet in their hand — an unfinished project from a while ago that they never had time to finish . ( life was always busy as a student in u.a ... but moments like these made it seem worth it in the end . )
            
            ⠀⠀⠀and for a moment had fuko let their mind clear completely , something that was far too rare these days around . the feeling of kimko 's fingers working through their hair was more calming than they could realise .
            
            the students eyes lifted for a moment at the question , features furrowing for a moment as they took the time to think over the question . they hadn 't really thought about it too hard — or about the whole topic of ' crushes ' to begin with . the thought was always lost on them , so maybe it had come up before in their mind .ᐣ
            
            ❝ i ... haven 't thought that much about it , 'm not too into those things , y 'know .ᐣ ... i mean , i admire people but i don 't think they would qualify as a /crush/ . ❞⠀⠀⠀the words were more so them just voicing their thoughts aloud , setting the bracelet down in front of them as they turned ever so slightly in order to look back at her .
            
            ⠀⠀⠀⠀❝ but ... what about you .ᐣ has anyone caught miss moreau 's eye yet by any chance .ᐣ ❞⠀⠀it wasn 't just about firing the same question back , they were genuinely /curious/ . and if there /was/ somebody ... then they could play match maker for her .ᐟ
            
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            ⠀⠀⠀╱ you did so well fr cc-bae : heart_eyes : this would 've been out sooner if my keyboard wasn 't busted , sorry about the delay fr : pensive :

@stqrwaters   ...
            
            the dorms atmosphere was rather peaceful , as was the day . classes went on as normal , there had been no /threats/ that day . all in all , it had been rather nice , albeit surprising to fuko — it was well welcomed ... and well needed .
            
            so , here they were , sitting with kimiko in the quiet dorm room , music playing at a low volume to accompany the vibe they were going for . ( kimiko seemed to nevermind the music they 'd play , which rue was relieved about considering they just scrolled onto a /random/ playlist of theirs and let it shuffle . )
            
            ⠀⠀⠀should they be studying .ᐣ most likely . would they .ᐣ of course .ᐟ just ... not yet .ᐟ this was /far/ more important .
            
            they had to spend so many days of their life training , preparing and studying to become /heroes/ at the end of their final year ... and , well , at times it was a /lot/ . and for someone like rue , it was far too overwhelming at times .
            
            u.a was an escape from the place they were forced to call ' home ' , but at what cost .ᐣ they were constantly risking their lives for the mere chance of a dream /so/ many others their age wished to obtain .
            
            ⠀⠀⠀⠀the thought couldn 't help but linger .. what made them so special .ᐣ what made them so sure that /they/ /could/ be a hero .ᐣ
            
            they didn 't quite know and that was rather scary . therefore the thought was pushed away , now was not the time ... they were sure it would catch up to them soon enough though .
            
            but they 'd wait until it was just them , when they weren 't spending time with their best friend at the moment , even if it was just the two of them . and even if kimiko had always been there for fuko , whether it was late or early hours .
            
            ⠀⠀⠀but they didn 't mind , no , they were grateful they had found people who cared about them so much ... they had found /friends/ . and that was more than enough for the young hero in this time of their life . ( or so they 'd believe at first )
            
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kimiko sits behind rue, her slim fingers moving through their hair as she braids the strands. she lightly hums along to whatever song was playing in the background; one she was / totally / unfamiliar with but enjoyed the melody of.
            
            her red eyes are focused on the other young hero-in-training, trying to see what they were doing with also braid their hair. 
            
            “so.. rue” kimiko starts, trailing off slightly as she gently wraps a rubber band around the end of the braid she just finished. once the braid was secured, she moves her hands over and starts to braid their hair again. 
            
            “do you find anyone here… i dunno, attractive? ya know, like a crush!” she asks, smiling sweetly and looking over at them. she was / very / interested in such mundane things like that. it brought her a sense of domesticality.
            
            a feeling she / really / enjoyed.
            
            /. used my big brain just for you pookie :heart_eyes:

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@stqrwaters   ..
            
            what a cruel twist of fate to have kimiko here in front of them, one of their best friends , one of the few people fuko could say they truly cared about, had come to them. in another reality, maybe that's what they would've wanted, maybe in another reality, this would 've gone better than it was in reality. maybe they would've simply gone /home/ with her instead.
            
            but the silence was almost suffocating, enveloping them and pressing down on their chest, it made it hard for them to inhale, it hurt to exhale. there were never awkward silences, all the times they had snuck over to her dorm to study, or to watch movies or to stay over for the night, this never would've happened.
            
                      yet it was and it was because of them, everything was because of them — they had left u.a in order to protect people from being hurt of their own shitty luck, but in doing so, they had made things worse.
            
            leaving u.a behind had also meant them leaving a piece of them behind — a small price to pay, they initially thought. too stuck in their own mindset to see how it would hurt those around them, or perhaps that wasn't right, perhaps they knew.. maybe they knew and they still chose to turn their back anyhow. but what one was worse .ᐣ rue didn't know, they didn't /want/ to know.
            
                      ❝ kimiko... ❞ words now difficult to form once tears soon pricked their eyes, now obscuring their vision — and because of so, they had to look down and away from her. they had tried to ignore them for so long, tried to push them down and away from the surface, but now they couldn't even swallow down the lump in their throat without choking on it.
            
            ❛ i never meant for it to get this far ❜, rue wanted to protest, to tell her that they never meant to cause her pain, but the truth laid thick between them like a bitter pill — actions spoke louder than words, and rue's actions had spoken volumes.
            
            so, a quiet ❝ i — i 'm sorry ...  ❞ had been all they were able to choke out without sobbing.

it was almost cruel how easy it was for them to get under her skin. for them to remind her of all the things that happened between them. every hang out session, every joke told, every sleepover. everything was nothing but a / lie / now. 
            
            everything they had shared ... well, it meant nothing now. not when it had just been so / easy / for them to leave her behind like that. 
            
            kimiko had been hopeful. wishing that she had been one of the people who was / actually / close to rue. but of course, hope was always so / stupid / in a cruel world like this. in a world of superheroes, hope lead nowhere.
            
            there's silence once again ; an awkward one. it wasn't comfortable like it would've been if they had stayed. if they had / never / decided to leave her. but they did. and it ruined that bond they once had. 
            
            kimiko knew the truth though. even if she didn't agree with their decision to leave, she understood why they did. having bad luck like they did was eventually gonna cause someone to get hurt so leaving would be the best option. but it hurt. it hurt to see her best friend just up and leave. 
            
            "you ..." there's a pause, red eyes scanning over them. it was like she was trying to analyze them. and maybe she was ; she wasn't exactly sure herself. 
            
            "i don't care if you hurt me ... i would've been okay with that. hell, i'd let you hurt me a million times." and it was true. she'd rather be hurt by their bad luck then ever have to lose her best friend. but it was too late now.
            
            she had already lost her best friend.

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            @stqrwaters   ..
            
            in any other situation , rue would have been hoping for forgiveness , if it was with anyone else other than kimiko . . . but the guilt laying heavy on their shoulders was a reminder for them . they didn 't deserve it , not this time , not after what they had done , what they had caused .
            
            they had left u.a in order to protect their friends , knowing if they kept them at arms length , they wouldn 't be affected by the bad luck that was instilled in their very bones and marrow . they thought what they were doing was for the better , that it would /fix/ everything that had been broken . . . not make it /worse/ .
            
            their gaze lifted from the floor , breath hitching at her words , in the back of their mind they knew she was right . she was right , they shouldn 't have left . . . or they should 've said goodbye at the very least , but they hadn 't . too afraid to face the people they called their best friends , they opted for taking the easy way out instead .
            
                   ❝ i . . . i couldn 't , i didn 't want to because then . . ❞ cerulean hues squeezed shut , exhaling a shaky breath , they knew this would happen eventually , it was inevitable to avoid they were sure , but . . . that didn 't make it any easier .
            
            ❝ . . . because then i 'd had to face that i was hurting you guys . ❞
            
            their gaze focused on their hands , they had begun trembling , though not out of fear , they had been trying not to break — but that was becomingly increasingly difficult for them to hold up . yet they wouldn 't . . . they couldn 't , it wouldn 't be fair to kimiko , not here or now , not ever .
            
                ❝ you know i 'd take every hit . . ❞ voice now barely above a whisper , rue gave a weak laugh , too suffocated by their own guilt to do much more then that .

    /     i’ll  definitely   drop        soon,  dearest   but   gimmie     anything  <33

╱   oh  &   mharpc  pls  say  whether  you  want  u.a  rue  or  vigilante  rue  pls  fr