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so I,
          left my man in the middle of the highway, won't be seen with him 'cause that's embarrassing.
          he can be such a bitch
          and it makes me sick

انا شكلي رح أودع الملاعب رسميا

you'll live a long time yet, Michael. An eternity without me.
          you'll look into the faces of passers by hoping for something that will— for an instant— bring me back to you. 
          you'll find moonlit nights strangely empty because when you call out my name through them there will be no answer.
          Always, your heart will be aching for me.
          and your mind will give you the "doubtful" consolation that you did...a brave thing.

it's all fun and games until you realize you've been severely detached from reality and have no idea about what purpose you serve in this life and for a second you look back at all the patterns you lived through and even succeeded to notice but somehow failed to break and you're now standing on the edge of it starting all over again and you think why should I even try when the outcome is tattooed all over my body like an evidence of shame and something inevitable so you sit back down and think of praying but your heart and mind have been disconnect from religion for many months now so you genuinely pick the safest option that is praying to God you'd just die because there is nothing and no way out of all of this

this isn't rage, it's too specific
          I like to hate symbolic limits
          this is a statement, I'm complicit 
          this is a dream, god put me in it...

oh what a valiant roar, what a bland goodbye
          the coward claimed he was a lion
          I'm combing through the thread of lies
          "I will never leave", never mind
          our field of dreams, engulfed in fire 
          your arsons match your somber eyes
          and I'll still see it, until I die 
          you're the loss of my life

I do wanna be great
          but I also wanna sleep so better luck I guess

I seek love in resemblance.

How's yo exams girl?

I'm devoured by grief.