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yeryüzünde kayboluruz, kibrimizde boğuluruz
          gökyüzünde buluşur, ankara'yla bozuşuruz

i hope
          the echoes in your mind
          oh, don't
          don't match the rage behind your eyes

when the night is over, don't call me up i'm already under

can you see me? i'm waiting for the right time
          i can't read you, but if you want, the pleasure's all mine

BUTTT IIII HİTTTT THHEEE WALLLL iii jusstt hittt thhee walllll

address the letters to the holes in my butterfly wings
          nothing's forever, nothing is as good as it seems
          and when the clouds are ironed out, the monsters creep into your house
          and every door is hard to close
          well, i hope you know how proud i am you were created

it takes a lot to give, to ask for help
          to be yourself, to know and love what you live with
          it takes a lot to breathe, to touch, to feel
          the slow reveal of what another body needs

oh, oh-oh, you're not a prophet
          have you forgotten that you're godless?
           you're on your knees, and
          you're tryna to speak, beggin' me please, but
          don't even say what you're gonna say
          it's too late, too late, baby
          why did you wait
          to finally change?

little did you know
          it was taking hold of my head
          little miracles
          so subliminal, let me rest
          you run from me, from me
          you won't be my making
          you run from me, from me
          you won't be my shade

"i used to make long speeches to you after you left. i used to talk to you all the time, even though i was alone. i walked around for months talking to you. now i don't know what to say. it was easier when i just imagined you. i even imagined you talking back to me. we'd have long conversations, the two of us. it was almost like you were there. i could hear you, i could see you, smell you. i could hear your voice. sometimes your voice would wake me up. it would wake me up in the middle of the night, just like you were in the room with me. then... it slowly faded. i couldn't picture you anymore. i tried to talk out loud to you like i used to, but there was nothing there. i couldn't hear you. then... i just gave it up. everything stopped. you just disappeared."