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It just hurt me even more to think that he literally became the guardian angel of the people he loves.

All I can think about Zayn’s postponed post is how Liam would have nothing but be sorry if he knew it, even though we all know it wasn't his fault (nobody's fault it is, actually); he's still gonna think that way because God knows how his cute little brain function.
          And that just makes me want to cry so hard.

It's kinda weird because this is the moment that gives me such a strong feeling that I should start writing or at least bring up and finish the story idea about 1D I had years ago.
          
          Like, I can't explain, it's just that I need THIS. I need this to tell myself that in another universe he's happy and has a great life like he fucking deserves, so I can believe that he might be happy at some point, not just the ending that we disappoint him.

You know what's the most heartbreaking part?
          It's that this is not the end, it's a stop.
          
          It's a stop.
          You don't get a reasonable ending message, or proper goodbye.
          The only thing you get is a miserable and fucked-up news that smash right on face that cause you pain like hell burning.
          And that's it, there's nothing more and nothing new.
          It's just stop there forever.
          
          God, I hate this....

Okay.... right now I still can't process this....
          It doesn't feel right, even though I'm not really stucked in this fandom anymore.
          But it still feel so unreal to hear the new, like, how can this be possible?
          I......I need more time to deal with the truth...

How can I publish a story without freaking out? 
          Like, God, even though I only have some photo edits or story ideas, I still feel like a clown who works on nothing.

There should be a Kingsmen au of Ziam story. I repeat, THERE SHOULD BE A KINGSMEN AU OF ZIAM STORY!!!

How many apologies does it take to recover a devastated heart?

Let just be honest, even though ppl apologize there's still  nothing change.
          Like you pull the trigger and say sorry later, are you stupid enough to think it's some kind of fairytale that the wound will recover by words?
          
          No, it mean nothing, the only thing it could be is just for you to admit your fault and sleep in the bloody peace with any kind of guilt.
          
          I want an apology, so everyone can f**king go to sleep.
          But it seems like I'm still requesting too much.
          
          So, fu*k me and fu*k anyone throw shit on him.
          And thank everyone for destroying my boy.

There should be a story about Liam as a guardian angel dressing like his new NFT post whose job is to keep eyes on Zayn, whose life, as he said, is boring and miserable like shit.
          
          I want a angelLiam and humanZayn au.:D