tetekv_

The way we romanticize forced married knowing that Taehyung will end up with kook. But in reality it is scary when it happens in our life. 

joenkim1306

@tetekv_ not just scary it's terrifying in real. Imagine being forced be it by parents or by the partner itself---woah Im gonna have nightmare. 
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tetekv_

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........:)   guess what, I thought i will be fine but day by day im dying inside I miss y mother, miss my pedophile abuser, miss my ex all together, miss Allah's love. I feel like I have no one now, im crumbling down piece by piece.  I even miss myself who used to be there for me all the time. But im not finding her anywhere, I feel empty from inside. Just runing on autopilot. Smiling, living, breathing, writing. But sometimes when I snap back to reality , I feel like godamm I fucked. The pain is so agonizing that I forced myself snap into autopilot once again. Like why the hell I'm feeling so disgusted at myself that I don't even want to be there for myself? 
          
          Uhohohuuhuhuhuhhuhuh..ok let's just stop with this reality and go back, go back. I think im good at it. Fuck im so good at living in a world I built inside my head. I think I'm mentally sick...cause....why people left me? Damm

joenkim1306

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@tetekv_  everything you said is valid even Missing that pedo ,why? Bcs it's not bcs you are missing them,its bcs you see yourself alone. 
            But soften yourself a lil and don't try to take that pedo's lose as real life loss I'm glad they left but it's understandable why you feel like wanting them back at that time. it's just sometimes we feel like we need something to ground us even if it's toxic. 
            I understand and exhaustion.the pain mental emotional physical and weight of reality. 
            Your self that used to be there for you isn't disgusted at all it's just she is tired herself after all look how much she has gone through. That's not mentally sick that's a person who is exhausted and drained so it keep going back to place where atleast one of the pain gets numb if  not healed. 
            Some people are removed by God like that pedo, while it's just... Idk how to say bcs your mother is real and most painful loss that no scripture talk can make it less painful. 
            Thank you for sharing it here , even tho I didn't reply on time. 
            Keep praying author nim keep your faith in God everything will be alright soon I wish I could be there in person. Don't give up. 
            Maybe things are fucked up but they are not finished. 
            Be gentle on yourself. I'm here. ♡♡
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tetekv_

How are you pimpi?

joenkim1306

@tetekv_  I'm good author nim how are you I miss you
            I'm sorry for responding late , yk I have move from my mom's place and here I have a strict sibling , can't use wattpad tho I'm trying to check on you as much as possible. 
            I apologize author nim
            Please take care if yourself and dw I'll be coming here every day even for a once
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tetekv_

Hey! How was your exam. Because of exam I didn't feel like bothering you that much. Now that it's over, I will be annoying again here ^_^ although I say im ok but there's constant pressure on my heart that doesn't leave. It's tiring but what can I even say. Need to live with it. But my internship is over and now I'm officially in 4th year of university. I really want to graduate as soon as possible. University was hell haha

tetekv_

@joenkim1306 Don't mention it. You were really strong and you deserve rewards for your hardwork. I'm proud, we all are proud regardless of the result ♡ who cares? We have unpredictable lives, let's not give up in any situation. 
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tetekv_

@joenkim1306 I'm very relieved and glad that the exam was easy and I'm really proud of you. See You can do it and you will get what is good for you. So if you don't get selected, just understand that it was never meant for you alright? You have done a good job by going through something so hectic for months. Now let's just rest and catch up on everything you have missed ♡
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joenkim1306

@tetekv_  and btw the exam was easy  , wasn't expecting it too be that easy even though I know I won't get selection but I'm happy that at least I didn't give you before exam bcs I would have regretted it , it was actually easy. Thank you so much for supporting me author nim♡♡
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tetekv_

Pimpi tomorrow is the big day, your D-Day. Give your best, do your best and after that just release ever bad thoughts. Because it's over. Now you look forward not look back. Look forward to what to do in the future ♡

joenkim1306

@tetekv_  thank you author nim I was actually thinking about texting you, I'll do it tomorrow tho okay, and I'm already pushing every thought  dw author nim, thank you so much for being here for him , it means alot♡♡
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