Okay…this isn't easy for me to say…but I've been going through something lately. And it's not that I've been feeling sick or anything. A common cold doesn't count.
It's this feeling of yearning, wanting something, or maybe…a little loneliness in between. I often rub my wrist in the process of that loneliness. Sometimes, I wonder if I'm even allowed to feel this way without someone calling me "obsessed".
It hasn't been that long since I've felt this way. 2019 was the last year of that sorrow, joy, mess, and elatedness. My heart would flutter with pure happiness, but people would think that it's "inappropriate behavior".
How could feeling so happy, and feeling so heartbroken be irrational? Don't you know what it feels like to be this way? I certainly do. It's something that happens to the rest of us. It's something that can easily continue are hard days…something to cheer us up for once. And that feeling…
…is a crush.