seungbins doormat

omg so update: i’m engaged as of 1:30 pm today

dear lord it’s been a hot minute since i’ve been on this app but hello??? didn’t know your notifications got deleted after so many days of not using the app

they. they-  they had work this morning and so they went to shower and and and and and they put on a separate shirt that wasn’t picked out from their work outfit and i was like???? they didn’t pick to wear that???? and so i was like so confused for a hot minute and then before they left they fucking took the shirt off and put the one they planned to wear on. and then. gave me the shirt they just took off so i could go back to sleep because it smells like them??? i am in love what the FUCK

so bubba met my dad and my step mom the other day and then in turn met my aunt sharon and her husband brian, my uncle shaun and his wife amanda, my grandfather jim and his stepdaughter amy and her husband jeff (and the kids thst were also at the gathering: alyssa, lily and uh the dude that stayed away from everyone except at dinner) and i felt so bad because they were only supposed to meet just my parents but it happened so suddenly and i didn’t want to overwhelm them but i wouldn’t blame them if they were bc i was also overwhelmed. 
          
          BUT!! they were so cute with my baby brother and it made me legitimately want to cry and then  we were also showing our old pictures and i showed them my graduation ceremony and i said yeah it’s hawaiian tradition for the family to give you leis at big milestones (graduation, wedding, anniversary, etc) and- and then they said “are you gonna lei our kids too” OUR KIDS??? BESTIE DONT DO THIS TO ME ILL FUCKING CRY! 
          
          and then yesterday. yesterday came home. i was going to leave bubbys house around 11 but i was sleepy so i said id leave around 12:30 bc they had work at 12 and i was gonna leave after resting a bit but then the pillow had their scent on it and i melted into it but after a while the scent left and so i grabbed one of their shirts just to hold for a bit and then i ended up falling asleep until 2:30 and then i woke up and like cried bc i had to go home because i hate going  home. and then i went home but it’s okay because we called last night and then i fell asleep listening to the sound of their voice on accident 

YALL

y’all. until yesterday i haven’t had a single smoochie since june fifth. i was touch starved. i wanted smoochies and i got them!!!!

normalize sobbing your eyes out as you drive away from your partners house because you don’t want to go to work and you don’t want to go home later tonight

the gay inside me is freaking out and idk what to do lol

they just said- they. i. they fucking called me the light of their life. said that they can’t believe they’re not dreaming and that i’m actually with them because the fact that i don’t judge them but also think they’re pretty and cute and attractive is unfathomable to them unreal. and they said. they said they think so highly of me that it can’t be measured in human tools and that i’m the light of their life and it’s a privilege and honour to call me their partner and i. 
          
          do y’all hear my fucking tears?

BUBBA JUST SENT ME SNAPS OF THEIR FACE AND THEIR VOICE BC I SAID I MISSED THEM IF THEY DONT COME OVER HERE AND KISS ME RN ISTG