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thank you SM for voting on my story!! ;u; plEASE take all my love <3333

this girl deserves everything <3

i love you. deeply. but you could never catch a clue. i wanted to talk to you more but tomorrow is another day. i know you’re not like this with your lover which im happy about. though she is more important. in all areas. 

mmmmmmmm

you don’t have too answer this cause you’re taking a break but i just wanted to say that i love you and i care so much for you. you mean a ton to me so some things kinda get to me more when it comes to you. and im sorry cause there’s a lot of times where i get emotionally invested into my characters and i pull stuff on you. and im sorry for that. my biggest fear is that one day you’ll get tired of me. and i don’t want that at all. im scared of loosing you, truly am. i don’t know if you’ll ever see this but you know it’s you.

you’re getting tired of me. i feel it. 

so you really just left and said nothing. but it’s okay, you were going through your own battles that mine couldn’t compare too. i hope that you’re okay and that you remain safe and that you find the right one to love. 

i honestly fucking hate this shot. i hate how much i actually care about. i hate how much time i give you. i hate how im emotionally invested into our relationship yet it feels one sided. i hate how im the one who’s always in my feelings. i hate how many times you’ve fucking made me cry. i hate how i would literally drop everything just to talk to you. i hate you how much this hurts and you don’t even know the half of it. i hate myself. i hate emotional i am and how when i speak my mind, it’s fucking wrong. i hate how im always the sorry one. i hate it. i fucking hate it. but it’s whatever. my feelings are just whatever. and ill most likely just delete this tomorrow. and no one will ever know. they never do. especially not the one this is for. 

actually needed to talk to someone today

my heart needs someone to be given too. or am i just being desperate? idk. i just want someone to love, that’s all