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Bruhh "perfect" time for a gym crush

I feel like I'm getting better. I really hope that i am

Im anxious as fuck, i hope i dont mess up anything 

THEY ARE REOPENING MJ'S DEATH CASE IM ON THE FUCKING FLOOR. WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS P DIDDY SHIT. IM FUCKING JUMPING OFF A CLIFF IF THEY FIND OUT WHO KILLED MICHAEL JACKSON..MUSIC INDUSTRY IS SO CREEPY, I DONT WANNA WRITE SONGS ANYMORE
          i need some valerian to calm down. A glass of vodka would be better for this one tho

I was clean for 9 fucking months

My sleep schedule is still very fucked and i cant stop drinking monster, just... perfect. Haven't eaten much this week too, i just hope i don't pass out at some point. Really hoped i wouldn't relapse with the start of the school year, but i guess i had to know better. 

Im crying so hard, it only now has fully kicked in for me that i won't be able to see the person i always looked up to for a year and a half. Jeonghan is off to the army in 3 fucking days and i only now fully realise how sad it makes me. And after him Soonyoung will go, Wonwoo, Jihoon and the others... the people who feel the most like family. I know they wont be fully gone, content will still be made, but its just..different. I hope they will be okay. 

GIRL ARE YOU FROM MALAYSIA??!!

I need to do something with my wattpad addiction bcus it's really getting out of hand. I had like 2 hour screen time a day when I didn't use it and now I spend at least 6-7 hours a day on the app only... also my school year is starting in two weeks and I haven't done shit to get ready for school... oh, another one, sister insomnia is back with me again! How sweet (no)

NORRIS WON THE GRAND PRIX YESTERDAYY I WAS ROOTING FOR HIM BEFORE THE RACE!!! I did check the results right after the race, but I forgot to say it here, but like, no one is reading this anyways so why bother