things have been really rough recently. spending so much time alone is really hurting me. I feel myself spiralling so I try to do 'good things' but then my health issues flare up & I spend days unable to do anything & just live in constant pain. sometimes it feels like an impossible battle to get better in the ways I want to & need to when I'm always in pain & struggling (or unable) to do basic things.. I really want to have hope & believe that my health can & will improve, but definitely feeling defeated & worn out. having an insurmountable back log of mental & emotional turmoil / trauma is a lot of work (and already hard to endure on it's own) but pairing that with constant triggers and an unfavourable environment is just too much