joyjuyeon
i really miss the old times when i used to be active in this app.
though most of the time it's cringe, but i can still remember the feelings of joy in my heart whenever I interacted with my online friends.
i used to ask for advices related with how to write fanfics and stuff, and trying so hard to be like one of them aesthetic account (but failed lmao).
the grammar in my stories are horrible to the point I couldn't even stand looking at the list, but it was a delightful time when I published them and my friends, or any users reading them hyping my fics up.
once in a while i always check out this account because i want to remember those memorable moments again.
it is sad when i noticed that most of my online friends have deleted their account, or simply just no longer active in this app. I've noticed this when I was scrolling through the board.
i don't know if you still remember me, the one who used to be called as 'nut', but if you still does then I'm so happy and grateful that you did.
these paragraphs sounds awfully dramatic but I'm being totally honest with my feelings now. I used to keep saying stuffs like 'i've been getting loads of assignments' or 'im feeling unwell' as excuses to go on hiatus.
it was actually a lie — i'm slowly losing motivation to write fanfictions. i have ao3 and pov account on twitter but i just left them without posting any fics or povs again, simply because I'm losing interest.
i do get a lot of ideas sometimes, but i just don't have the energy to write them down.
joyjuyeon
golden child, victon, the boyz — it is sad to announce that I've no longer standing these groups. well, there's still a bit of 'deobi' left in my soul but they're not much. these groups didn't do anything, I'm just simply getting bored/losing interest over the time.
my fears have come true. and it was losing interest to these groups. back then, i couldn't even imagine my life without bragging about them every single time, but look at me now.
i tried to stan them again but it didn't hit me like it used to. i'm losing interest on almost everything, including my life.
don't worry, it hasn't gotten to that stage yet.
right now, the only group i'm currently focusing on is enhypen. two years and still going strong !!
though i can feel it. im losing interest on them as well, but I'm trying my best to watch more of their contents, listen to their songs and maybe, read more fanfictions about them?
well, of course there are some other groups that i like too but not as much as enhypen of course.
anyways back to the story.
i don't really know what should i say or type anymore, i just want to say that i miss you guys a lot.
my hands are getting numb because i literally write these for almost half an hour.
that's all for now, and goodbye !
have a nice day :)
— nut
