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and I am still sad

It's been a while

No! Tapos all along sila lang rin naman pala! Ñeta!

So, kanino mga ba ako may pinaglalaban? Ang lonely ng feeling kasi sarili ko lang naman ang inaaway ko.

Alam kong mali-mali ang grammar ko. Mas okay na mag-practice basta nalalaman ko rin mali ko after.

I find it hard to breathe. You lose my hope. It's like a last string you cutted that I've been holding on to that seems my life depends on it. You are liar. You are the one who lied. How can this goes on with you that never trusted me in the first place? I feel betrayed that all along that we've been together was just all nothing because you never really did love me. If you did, why there's always doubt? Why not hear me and trusted anyone's word without hearing mine? You're not worth my tears. 

I've experienced how cruel the world is. It creeps me out for my future.

Would I make him feel like I'm defying? I'm afraid I would. Hope he will understand.

I'm awake so don't.

Good morning. Hoping the rest of the day will be also good. I'm afraid to open my thoughts that might make them feel betrayed.