jsvngstarlightz

Day 5 , I'm still alive , I guess ?

jsvngstarlightz

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Day 4 , I'm still there , trying to stop feeling a piece of shit next to people and just because I don't believe in me . I really wished I can change that , I need to but .. it's hard , I wished my English was better but .. it's odd and so basic . I'm trying my best , I promise but I guess , I shouldn't try anymore , I'm already fed up with my school , my family and my own thoughts , trying to make a book about minsung is hard for me . I tried two times in a row , one about my Mafia AU , and the other about an Euphoria AU but it's giving these cringy fanfic 'cause I suck in english and I'm not fluent at all . Every word I want to use aren't the same I imagined in my head , it's like in my brain , everything was perfect , everything was a book from Shakespeare but instead , it's a child written poem . I want to fucking eat those plants my mom used to smoke , literally .