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i miss youuuuuu

oh i love you so bad
          now it hurts when you laugh
          but i dont know if you'll ever love me back 
          
          - 1/15/2020

i dont know if im going to be ok :(
          i think i will be
          it just seems like a vicious cycle 
          what if i'm the one who's spinning this wheel? 
          
          - 1/9/20

winter got me feeling some kind of way
          sleepy, cozy, warm
          hearts mingled, feelings intertwined
          i miss you 
          
          rain is coming soon,
          says the weather man 
          rain means love will come again
          or at least,
          i hope it will 
          like the year gone past
          seems that time flies so fast
          
          a year ago, i loved you
          a year ago, you were mine
          a year ago, life wasn't ashes and wine
          
          but in the meantime,
          i'll watch from afar
          stuck in these emotions 
          and wishing i was in your car
          
          but it will be ok
          winter just got me feeling some kind of way 
          
          
          - 11/18/19

i wanna fall in loveeeeeeeee

hey babes, miss you! xx 

what is joy?
          how can joy be real?
          an everlasting, eternity happiness
          an energy that comes from within, that no matter the circumstances, it can reveal itself
          
          what if it isn't real? 
          what if my life is a lie
          i dont need to be here
          what is the point in anything
          
          ive lost it all 
          but i can't seem to bring myself to the edge
          
          - 11/12/19

i just want to hug you
          
          
          - 11/5/19

i have no more energy 
          for school
          for friends
          for singing
          for anything it seems like
          
          what's the point of any of the class
          that i take? 
          of any of the friends
          that i make
          
          i dont know how to 
          prioritize
          so
          yay (:

YOU KNOW WHAT
          screw being sad
          screw feeling worthless and depressed and down
          it'll happen
          i know that i will get caught up in feelings and emotions once in awhile
          there will be days when i loose the will to even get out of bed or when i cannot control myself crying in the mornings
          
          BUT RIGHT NOW IS NOT THAT TIME
          i choose to be strong and persevere and endure through it all, no matter what happens
          no matter what curveballs life throws at me and no matter what lemons fall down to smack me in the face
          I WILL BE OK 
          IT WILL BE OK
          LIFE WILL BE OK AND I WILL BE HAPPY WITH THE POWER OF JESUS AND BOBA AND MUSIC AND FRIENDS
          
          - 10/14/19